sleep

There's gonna be construction in our apartment the next couple days (we're getting new windows) so... probably will be somewhat scarce.

Just dunno if I want to be around while they're working on everything. So, we'll head out, do stuff, and come back in the evening those days (today and Weds, unless things end up out of schedule) or something.

The bad part is that we've had trouble sleeping lately so like... I'm probably only going to get 3 hours of sleep at most before the construction starts. Meaning we'll probably end up napping in the Concordia library or something, ha! Or just staying up and sleeping when we get back.

In RP news, I'm accepting a couple more players into my Outcastes game on RPoL. I hope I get some fun concepts. That game has run pretty smoothly so far, much to my surprise. Five Coils is a little harder to get to come together well (though I'll say the group Kraken is in is doing the best so far).

Meh, need to try to sleep. =_=

First of all, up too late. SIGH. I wanted to sleep 3 hours ago but Jon wanted to cook all late (really late). Meh. I found something to distract myself while waiting and decided I'd apply for a D&D 4th Edition game on RPoL.

No clue if I'll make the cut, but I gave it an ok effort for something scrapped together in a couple hours.

I'm posting this mostly as I did in my request to join the game. I'm lazy, and it's late. Also, if you're wondering, the setting's a custom setting, so I went and expanded on some bits and pieces the DM wrote for it so far, and tried to make it work for my concept.

(Hrifa was originally conceived as a D&D 4e dragonborn version of Archana. I didn't want to make her a cleric, though. So I gave an entirely different impetus for her relentlessness...)

it's 5 am and I'm awake. Booooo :( I thought I fixed it but I ended up napping earlier today and now I don't want to go to bed. Not really progressing much with getting outside more. It'll be winter before I know it, at this rate. *sigh*

I can talk about all the ways I fail lately but I think I won't.

Um. I made another Exalted (2nd ed) chara but not sure I like her much. And I ended up skipping game on Nekira again which sucks of me (though she said she doesn't mind) :( I'm going to be thrown off again because my doc appointment is actually NEXT Weds, not today, and now next week is starting to look too busy for my liking (grr, double grr).

and I need to not be all hermity and slacktastic but I REALLY CAN'T right now. my life is becoming intolerable every time I think of how I have to keep freaking WAITING for everything and have no confidence my plans will work out in the meantime. *shrug* life sucks.

I have a forum :O

This one's pretty simple, it's just made with Drupal modules. So all you have to do is register and login to my site to use it. Not sure whether it'll get any traffic, but figured I'd put it out there and give it a shot.

I'm still debating whether I want to put the recent forum posts block yet. Hmm. Right now I have recent comments, but that's 'cause sometimes I miss people's comments.

Oh well... I got to stop working on this, no good being insomnic when I have something to do early tomorrow. :(

Well, I'm a bit better today. Probably going to be pretty distracted today though... I threw off my sleeping pattern when I had to lie down. I was so sick with stress I was too weak to get up for several hours.

I did rest though, and I talked a lot to Jon and spent time with him. I always worry about the repercussions when my frustration gets the better of me, or my paranoia, my trust and control issues, my anxiety or so on. He is so often my target, because 1) he lives with me, and 2) he is probably the only person I'd hope would still talk to me after I show him my cruelest and most selfish side.

I'm the type of person to expect people to hate, abandon, or discredit me. As friendly and accepting as I can be, I'm very hard to get close to. I'll purposefully withdraw from people when I feel too asocial or anxious. It's easy for me to just disappear, when I don't expect anyone to miss me.

Worked on this yesterday... uh... today. I have to be up for a hair appointment and it's freaking 9 am... no wait. 10 am. *siiiiiiighs at self* Why do I do this to myself? But I had to get the sheet done.

Here she is: Cecily aka Cecil Ursebrand, a young woman pretending to be a male knight. She comes from a patriarchal, rather misogynist country, in fact. Though her father actually treated her well. He was a knight, but died tragically, and her mother blamed her for it ever since.

Cecily's response was to run away and follow in her father's footsteps. Except, in Auria (her country) you can't be a knight unless you're male. :P

I pulled an all-nighter (till 11 am) writing a huge document on the Prydaen race for the Order Talliska's in. Honestly, I don't even know if it's what the Speaker expected. o.O I just wrote what I thought was an appropriate document to describe the Prydaen race and customs in the light of the latest wave of hate/prejudice.

I did a crapload of research for it, too. I was already familiar with Prydaen customs, having played Talliska for years, but I wanted to make sure I got everything as right as I could make it. So I subjected myself to several hours of peering through the 37 pages of posts in the Prydaen race forums. o.O Well, a lot of it was interesting reading, and I did get some good stuff from the GM posts, so it was worth it. I'll post it here when I've got some sort of consent or approval from the Order, I guess.

Anyway, end result is that I'm exhausted (though oddly giddy) and I've got one, maybe 2 RPs to play tonight (definitely Panoply, maybe 1890's game since it was skipped last week), on top of prepping for Emberdays tomorrow. n.n Fortunately, I don't think the ED prep will take much time, I already have a good idea how it'll go. So I'm just going to try and get everything done and rest/sleep early.

Still having lots of trouble sleeping, and I'm *about* to nap... just have so many people msging me about things. Since when did I get so active online again? It kinda just... happened. So odd. o.o

Just to summarize... today was mostly me posting for Wardragon, looking at character sheets for Soul Collectors, and playing some DR.

Wardragon didn't get all that many posts... Grey was feeling kinda braindead, and the setup of the current session is pretty fragmented (pretty much *everyone* is doing their own thing right now). But! I got to have Archana do an awesome prayer stunt. And she pissed off a god of slaughter and he's going to try to kick her ass, with hundreds of bloody, pointy weapons. And lots of showy gouts of blood, apparently... Archa will have RED armor instead of white, soon enough. XD

Wow I've slept like 3 hours... this is bad. Geez...

I ended up working on this: the Soul Collectors Forum. Hrm. O.O It's really a forum for only like... 5 people... well maybe 6 or 7 if Wally and/or sis ever join later on. But forums still take some time to tweak.

I used MyBB. I had to do some manual updating of the BlackGold layout I used, through the Template -> Find Updated function in the Admin CP. There's actually three skins installed, one of which is a dark one, but the BlackGold one is the main one.

Finally... I have most of everything installed right on Saboteur. *pets him* Seriously, I'm glad. Stress makes me really ugly... and I don't just mean physically. I get really *mean* and I get whiny and full of entitlement issues. I'm not really proud of it, given my age. But one thing I've learned about getting older is that it doesn't necessarily make you wiser or more mature. :P

So, in all I've got... Intel Core 2 Quad 2.6Ghz, 4GB memory, ATI Radeon 2600 video card (yeah, it's more like a mid-range, but it's not bad at all :P), 2x500GB hard drives, running Windows Vista. Most everything we've installed on it worked ok except having to figure out what the right cables were for the second SATA drive. :P Oh, and my webcam, only the sound works right now but the video doesn't. Should be able to figure that one out soon though... I hope.