I'm thinking of taking a walk for a bit because all I'm doing is sitting here clicking reload button. Need more to write or something. I could go and chat with people, I do have a handful of people who like to talk to me for whatever reason :P but instead I just want to sit and tell stories to people.

I'm even on google looking for RPoL alternatives because what would happen if RPoL shut down? ARGH! I'd go crazy or something. Or maybe I'd be forced to run my own RP forum like I've thought of doing for a while now.

And I guess I could play Sims 2 yet again, but I really feel like I need to be doing stuff that's NOT at the computer. Except right now I'm in yet another one of those crappy "can't get dressed, feel too fat/ugly" moments and I'm lagging because I can't find SOCKS.

But my eyes are too tired of reading/writing/playing on the computer. x.x I totally have no life. Also I started my period. So that at least provides a possible explanation to my really erratic mood lately. But I better hurry and get dressed before it's too late for me to walk before Dark Heresy game. :/

And just when my mood was looking up. :/

Right now my finger hurts for typing so I might not be able to do much online for at least a couple days. I was getting pissed off about something and hit my nail so hard it bent backward and now it hurts when I press the fingertip on stuff.

Also I got the thought of quitting Outcastes because I am sick of that one player still trying to work out more freaking advantages for himself when I'm trying to set up this scenario to teach him a lesson. He pissed off a storm mother in a seafaring game, and the only way I could work it out believably without ruining things for everyone else was to force the guy into a duel with her. Then he starts asking for even more ways to cheat around the rules she put down for the duel. :/ I allowed the first one but the others are a no-go!

I'm going to be in a Scion game on RPoL. Yay! Though I missed out on getting to play a Norse scion. So I couldn't use my old character idea!

On the other hand Jon and I downloaded the Scion companion pdfs, and I'm now making a chara from the Irish pantheon (a scion of Brigid to be exact). I'm happy with my choice! But right now I'm stuck on how I only have 5 birthright points. Aieee. Well, we're supposed to go from Hero to Demigod to God in this game, so that'll change, but still!

I need at least 3 dots of Relic just so I can get Fire, Health and Water purviews. But I'm so tempted by getting a leanan sidhe Guide (3 dots!) Admittedly, it's mostly because I really like sidhe, and especially leanan sidhe. ^^; But it may not be worth it anyways, since Guide depends a lot on the ST actually making use of it.

Right now I'm screwed up with sleep again, ever since a couple days ago when I stayed up talking to Selina till 10 am. Eek. I have been discussing yet another game idea with her. It's a Realm game, and she even wants to try Exalted 2e, which is cool because I'm getting pretty experienced with it.

...I've been having some weird (and lucid) dreams just before waking up.

The morning before, I dreamt that my right leg started randomly splitting open with huge gaping wounds that for some reason I was using some sort of funky organic paste / antibiotic type stuff to stick back together. Of course the wounds kept opening up again, and in fact they started multiplying and worsening, going down the entire length of my leg. Very creepy.

Jon was there in my dream but for some reason we weren't calling 911, wtf? :( I woke up with my right leg asleep, so I guess that's what my dream translated my lack of leg circulation to.

This morning I dreamt my mom was totally pissed at me because we were supposed to be going somewhere but I was delaying. I woke up and I thought for some reason Jon was mad too so I was all upset at him until I stopped being disoriented.

Also I ate too much these past couple days. :/ Grr, bad, etc. AND I should have exercised more this week but didn't.

I am realizing that just preventing myself from RPoL posting for days means I end up with one day of the week where I have WAY too much to catch up on. x.x Wednesday was just like that, and it really wore me out.

On the other hand I did get to play a lot of Sims 2. Which I mostly spent cleaning out my custom content, rearranging lots and families, and like, 10% actually PLAYING. Figures! Now if only I had that computer that exclusively runs Sims 2.

Though I had an even cooler idea with Sims 3, since you can walk into and roam whole neighborhoods in that game. I told Kalli I could set up a "virtual people aquarium" where I'd just build, make characters, then keep it running indefinitely and poke at it now and then to see how my people advanced. :D It's like Progress Quest! For Sims!

I'll write again when I'm not sleepy and my head doesn't feel like exploding. x.@