I wrote this earlier today while completely insomnic. I only slept like a couple hours last night, but my brain just *really* felt like finishing this bit of writing, which for a few months now was only partway done in Elanthipedia.

The history includes some elements of Exalted Rysha's past (mostly when I write of her parents and early years, as I never really fleshed this out until later) but the majority is a recollection of actual DR events. I've had Rysha as a character since 2001, so there was a lot to summarize.

I also tried to mention most of the characters that meant something to her throughout her long life. (She is 51 now, though Elotheans live for 300 years.)

So here it is :) Just posting it to share, and so I have a record of it on my site.

I found out a bit more today about a friend of mine I play DR with. Jon and I love to play with her, it's very fun RP and probably the most fun RPing I've had in quite a while.

Anyway we talked a bit about abuses we experienced in life. I felt a bit... weird about it because I've never really had any "real" abuse. It took me something like 27 years of my life to realize I could even classify what I went through as a form of abuse. I mean, there was no physical sign of it. There weren't bruises. There was no rape. I was terrorized, I had no self-confidence whatsoever as a result, but to everyone on the outside this was just a parent disciplining his child.

I wonder sometimes if that's why I ended up fantasizing about rape and physical abuse so much, because then it would be a "real" punishment. There's that part of me that wishes something like that had happened to me, because people can point at it and KNOW it's a bad thing to do. What do I really have to show? I feel like a weakling compared to people with stories of repeated physical and sexual abuse. To think that all that really drove me into the pit of depression were just words and threats!

Most epic event. EVER.

WOW. Lyras is gone for good and so are her minions Sahfra and Tachid. Jon and I stayed up long hours playing, it was challenging and SO much fun.

Jon (as Alexsei) was running triage in the temple for the White Rose and I (as Talliska) was doing Rescue Team work, dragging bodies to the safe spot inside the temple grounds.

The temple itself needed its orbs charged with mana to keep up its defenses and power the rituals that the Cleric and Empath guildleaders were doing. So I had Ryshassa (who's on a secondary account now) running around bringing people up to the orb when Talliska wasn't out rescuing.

We had to charge pretty much continually, too. So that required pulling in a LOT of people. Ryshy got two RP awards for it, and Talli's got plenty of them during the string of invasions since Thursday. It's just been SO fun we couldn't stop playing. The RP opportunities, the danger, the thrill of finding out what comes next!

We even managed to do some White Rose recruiting at the same time. We're just that awesome. Alexsei has gotten SO many accolades as White Rose Triage Director, I'm so proud of him! Mialeigh (my awesome DR friend) too!

Anyway I am SO satisfied but also exhausted and now going to sleep :D

I'm SO worn out lately... Just churning out these recruiting lessons for the White Rose over and over. :x

I've written and tested 6 out of 7. Of course, I won't take all the credit, Samarah has done plenty of work on her part as well. She's writing the scripted versions, I'm writing the notes versions. Sometimes our opinions on how lessons are arranged differ slightly; that means I have to do more writing to arrange it as I see fit.

I have never done so much work for a Dragonrealms organization in my LIFE until now. I bet you COLLEGE will be easier. *smirks* But I love what I'm doing because the Order needs the foundation of the recruiting program. Even if I or Samarah are gone, other people can take what we've written down and do good things with it.

Sure it's just a game. But... it's a GOOD game. And I'm even learning good teamwork, writing and editing skills. So it can't all be bad!

With my next bit of news, though, I've entered a whole new level of DR crazy.

Jon and I have really been bummed over the imminent closure of PSU for the PC. :( We're continuing to look into replacement games.

I did a google search and found this blog page about "where do we go now from PSU?" It gives a few Korean game suggestions that look great, though I'm a little bit wary since there's plenty of Asian-made games that look very pretty but are lacking in substance...

Of the three mentioned, I'm currently favoring Tera Online. Fun selection of races and classes, and the developers are trying to make it so that all race/gender/class combinations are available. One of their selling points is also the "targetless" gameplay, in other words more like PSU where your positioning and aiming have to be done manually.

And I am SO playing female Castanic. I've wanted to play a demon chick for a while now!! But not completely sure on a class yet. (This is something my MMO group has to work out, as ideally, I'd like us to be a well balanced team like we were in PSU.)