huntress of the seven plagues

Yeah. I think I really enjoy it. o.o It's just involved enough to keep me happy, and doesn't keep me so busy I can't walk away from it when I need to. But doesn't trigger my anxiety much at all. It has, once or twice, but I have sufficient time to deal with it as necessary.

That said, I have this freaking urge to start Lion-Bull War already. I dunno. I just... really need forum games right now. And these games really do something to keep me focused and not utterly crushingly depressed for some reason. I REALLY would like anyone interested in playing LBW to inform me right away though, because I always prefer to take people I know over people I don't. :(

I'm also worried I may end up too obsessed with RP to even pay attention to anything else in my life, which is NOT good. But... "anything else in my life" is pretty much utter shit right now, and I lose a little bit more of my sanity every time I even think about it.

In RP, anyway. I've been playing Huntress in my Abby RPoL game again and it's *really* cathartic right now. Particularly the hunting, killing and eating mortals part. Hmm, sounds kind of Digital Devil Saga-ish. :P

But I've just had a really rough day. REALLY rough. "I want to crawl into a hole and die" rough. I've got this all-consuming rage inside me for the continued delays on my documents, and I feel constantly stifled from expressing it because Jon wants me to RATIONALIZE. And he asks me why I ask him all these questions and put him on the spot -- well, he's the one handling all those responsibilities, so who else am I supposed to ask? He has the gall to suggest I take care of it myself, when if I was in a state to do so (i.e. not anxious, etc.) I would have done it myself *from the start*.

Hrm hrm. I'm being lazy. :( I feel bad about it. But I also REALLY needed it. I just have to be able to kick myself out of it by this week.

I seem to be getting a lot of RP opportunities lately, thanks to friends. :D Kalli's starting to poke about starting a Space Navy game using Dragonstar d20 rules (I discovered, much to my happy surprise, that I really LIKE the Dragonstar setting). And Selina wants to play something with Jon and me, possibly Japanese historical in Heian or Sengoku period, or another shot at L5R.

Mostly, though, it's just been DR and RPoL.

Kalli wanted to see this, so here it is. It's one of my longest posts for Iya... a ritual sacrifice to a Storm Mother of the West. You don't want to offend a god of sea storms when you're sailing in the middle of her domain. :O That's just bad juju.

Iyadali, as I'm sure I've mentioned before, is one of my Exalted 2nd edition characters from Roleplay Online. She's a shaman from Okeanos (aka the Neck, as the Realmites call it), and a Twilight Caste Solar.

Unfortunately, I'm doing this stunt without charms, because she doesn't *have* any yet that would help. Whoops. I can only hope my roll isn't bad -- I tend to let the ST roll for forum games, so she can give bonii as appropriate, so I won't know till next she posts. ^^;

Anyway, the post:

Had to cancel Emberdays session. :/ Things were going bad for a while, until late this afternoon.

I'll explain later, maybe. I'm not sure yet how much I want to explain of it. I'm mostly okay, though. I just need some time to myself right now. =_= I'ma also needing to work on Reborn Again RP info, so that'll distract me for much of the week. :O I'm trying to find a hardbound copy of BESM 3rd, which would speed up my working on it significantly.

Anyway, what I've been working on lately... another RPoL character! And you thought I was tired of those.

Huntress of the Seven Plagues - Day Caste Abyssal. Plague-bearer (as per the Debility? I think? But made into a merit) and stealthy archer-type. She's also App 1, due to nasty plague scars. Yes, I'm playing ugly! But not App 0 ugly.