Latest random RP idea: Utena-ish game. Thinking of running it in OVA system (not Original Video Animation but Open Versatile Anime RPG), but need to get a hold of the PDF.

I've been joining SO MANY FFRPG games lately (even a homebrew one that's neither d100 or d6, but some sort of funky mashup of every RPG I've ever played). Now that Academy is slowly dying, and my interest in my other games is becoming questionable, I just keep wanting to join games instead. To be fair, Outcastes is going a bit better lately, but I'm still worried about whether I'll still be up to running Five Coils after how much DRAMA it caused me.

You'd think I'd go and do something better with my life instead... :P

I have been exercising a bit more and going out a bit more but lately I'm having a lot of trouble due to over-sensitivity to loud noises. Like, I cringe when horns are honked, or people yelling, and just plain have to plug my ears if there's loud things like badly maintained engines, construction work, etc.) So that makes it hard to go anywhere, again. There's always SOME sort of reason.

Two things I'm really enjoying right now... despite life otherwise sucking. (No comment, other than that I'm having illness related to stress fatigue right now.)

Knights in the Nightmare has a high learning curve at first, but I dutifully went through *all* the First Steps, Tutorial and Tips before starting. It was worth it. Though it looks complicated in explanation, actually PLAYING the game is fast and fun!! I'm moving my wisp around like a pro now, swapping items and knights in and out between turns, and lining up my 'kill bingo' (cause I mean, that's what it is. Kill bingo. You'd know what I mean if you played it.)

I admit to being really wowed by the presentation of the story, too. It actually has a very Valkyrie Profile-ish (the first one, anyway) feel with how the story and setting info is revealed gradually through the eyes of others (some of them dead, or soon to be dead). It really makes you want to play more, and later replay to get some of the knights you missed and find out more about their stories too.

Damn, shopping yesterday freaking exhausted me. I don't know why. I wonder if I got some sort of cold or illness or something in the air cause I got SUPER LETHARGIC after.

Anyway I bought stuff! Mostly clothes :o (Sigh, I hate my body shape... it's so hard to find pants now!) I also got the second Godspeaker book (The Riven Kingdom), reading these is like candy!

And I bought Knights in the Nightmare, playing the tutorial is making me go "wat" with how stylus heavy the game is. This isn't a bad thing, but having to do all that dragging the wisp around WHILE DODGING BULLETS! Aieee! I'll get used to it, but it still amuses the heck out of me. I'll probably also get my butt kicked like I did with Rondo of Swords. (Sting makes evil hard games!)

It continues to be incredibly hot. x.x HELP. Actually, it's mostly humidity, so it's hot AND stormy, and I'm anxious about being caught in a thunderstorm cause the loud noise scares me. I need to try going out more though, and exercising more too, or I'll never get rid of the extra weight I packed on since last year. :/

What might have been an otherwise nice break was ruined by my new check card (which I received only a few days ago) having some sort of glitch and nearly keeping me from being able to pay for last night's dinner.

It made me very upset and insecure. I wish I had another source of money. :(

Supposedly it should be fixed by tomorrow but I'm very angry about it still. First the bank sends me a card with a mistaken expiration date. Then there's some sort of Visa "network glitch" the first time I actually use the card. Now I'm paranoid it's just not going to work at all and I'll have no source of money at all.

It's supposed to still work for my online fees regardless, but it still makes me upset that these apparent circumstances are conspiring to make me very insecure and miserable.

I am reading a series by Karen Miller named Godspeaker. I think I really enjoy her writing style. She said in an interview that her books tend to be 'character driven' and that tends to be my style of writing as well. It makes me wish I could write novels myself. 30 is a little old to dream of that and hope it would go well.

I have plenty of ideas, though. And a part of me is starting to tire out using all those ideas for RPoL games people hardly want to post in. I am worn out of entertaining people who don't take enough initiative to involve themselves. The end result is that I do much more writing than the players do, and end up burnt out / unsure it's worth the trouble. Not all my games are like this, but it's sad when it is, especially with a game I once really enjoyed.

Speaking of games (video games in this case), I have been considering what DS game to get next, and it is most definitely Knights in the Nightmare. Incredibly difficult/complex Nintendo DS RPGs? I'm there. Fairly sure I will still want to buy Avalon Code as well. I like the system for collecting monster info, and being able to change the conditions of battle. It appeals to both my collector side AND my customization side!

Jon and I are going to be ordering a few video games online by next week-ish. We're also going to visit my inlaws around then, for maybe 4-5 days. More about that (specific dates, etc.) later!