I spent this entire last week slaving over Order of the White Rose documents. Yep that's right! For no pay and no gain, and even MORE insane, for a game!

But I was a bonafide geek for years now, I suppose I can't hide it.

I'm actually only halfway through the work, but made a serious breakthrough finishing the last two documents. So I'm feeling really good right now.

I'm looking at my rpol games and realizing "sheesh, those aren't even hard compared to what I was doing for the Order!" Hah! Yep, the complexity of writing recruit training lessons -- given information that takes some interpretation to write in a coherent manner -- defeats any difficulty I've had with RPoL recently.

Okay, maybe I still hate writing Exalted combat right now. But I think ANY RP post would be a break over all that nitpicking over lesson wording. *wobbles*

Right now though I really just want to rest (and by rest I mean poke at facebook apps and mess with the few RPoL posts I AM committed to doing this week).

Not really true. But I've been horrendously busy/distracted.

Earlier this week there was this whole fiasco with my brother-in-law coming to visit with his girlfriend during a time 1) we were TOTALLY not prepared for visitors, 2) I was HORRIBLY busy because I had a lot to do absolutely no time and energy to do it all.

Having the distraction of relative strangers in my home (I didn't know the girl at all, and my brother-in-law and I have the language barrier) completely destroyed any progress I would've had on my work. I was extremely upset about that, and at the idea that we were expected to put up with their presence on short notice because he decided he wanted to leave home on a whim. It wasn't even an emergency or anything so much as just... moving with hardly ANY plan of where to stay and what to do for the next few days.

After all that, my RPoL posting was pretty much thrown off COMPLETELY as well, as I couldn't get the energy to do that, either. I just kept getting more and more behind, more and more exhausted. Even doing work for the Order of the White Rose in DR was more wearing than I would have liked. :(

Cause I'm not used to being without a computer. Need laptop nao?

I feel silly 'cause I just sat here and played a buttload of Sims 3, finished a last rpol post, made sure my facebook apps wouldn't explode without me hovering over them (mostly just cleared some fields and fed my pet :P) and now am writing this.

And then find out that there's DR invasions, grr. Hello, Simu, stop making invasions while I have things to do. thx, Talliska.

Anyway, I have this list of Sims 3 things to do and need to write it down.
- Estrella and Elasul need to fall in love! (Damn, they're both so shy!)
- Mellauna needs 2 more best friends to finish one of the Charisma challenges.
- Mellauna and Suurnis are going to have a baby. (And she's eating a lot of apples. Needs to be a son, Nardoan.)
- More vacations!! Haven't been to Shang Simla yet. :D (Atma and Iluun went to SimEgypt, Oira and Reva went to SimFrance.) Want to review World Adventures, it's REALLY good.
- EVENTUALLY I will start aging all the kids up, once Nardoan passes toddler years. n.n

...gah, I need to nap! But gotta go!! :) See you all on the 5th-ish.

I won't make a habit of posting about this, I'm just in this facebook friend adding mood. n.n Send me an email if interested in me adding you to my friends list in Facebook. I'm still iffy about publicizing my RL name in relation to this site, so I am not putting the name of my account here. (Apologies to those of you with this on LJ RSS as it will be repetitive.)

On other news, apparently Drupal is now version 6.15. I SWEAR this always happens right after I update version. Argh! I'll probably procrastinate again and the same thing will happen with 6.16, too. *weeps* It never fails.

And now we are going to get groceries like we were supposed to yesterday. Gah, yesterday there was bank issues and we starved for like 24 hours. I know, not as bad as some people have it but man did it make me unproductive! Dark Siren needs food for writingz. :( But now we have lots of money and we're going to get some holiday treats and something nice for our private Christmas dinner (just the two of us. Yay!)

It's also gettin' really cold now! Hello winter! *brrrrr* Time to step out (I swear, like the first time in a week. :/ I know, I'm bad!)

I never did finish my Christmas cards and presents. So again postponed to sending them on MONDAY. I hate myself for that, but I had a really poor day trying to write the cards, having my ink run out, losing my temper and tearing one of my good cards up... o.O It was just not a day for finishing my cards. I'm pretty much overworked, and the sad thing is I don't even have a real job. I'm just a RPoL GM.

Why don't I have a job? Because responsibility makes me anxious. See, with GMing I can at least fool myself into thinking it's 'fake' responsibility because there's no money involved and people just play for fun. If I were to try doing the same amount of work but for money, I would freak out and completely freeze up. I'd be unable to produce anything.

It's similar with my webpage stuff. I have maintained my website and server for 10 years. I haven't been the best at it especially lately (what with rpol making me lazy with everything else), but I've done it for no pay, I've kept things afloat, I troubleshoot stuff for my users, or make them new accounts, etc. I do this almost without thinking about it. Sometimes it's hard but I get things done.