exalted 2e

Hrmmm... tomorrow I may be going out for the whole day! gasp! (well, today, now). Nothing big, just going to walk around and stuff. Maybe do a lil' shopping. And go out for dinner. It snowed yesterday though, so I'm expecting it to be cold!

I feel a little apprehensive leaving my RPoL games for too long, mostly because I still have that leftover, paranoic worry that people will forget about them if I don't post. Usually, though, even if I'm gone a day I can still post before bed. o.o

Right now I have three games, too. Three RPoL games is not *that* much in comparison to three real time games. But it can be a lot of work.

I was able to get Grey to join Five Coils, which makes me all happy!!! I am kinda nervous whether he will like it -- he's coming back to forum gaming after years away from it. But we'll see. I ended up accepting more players than I thought so I have people to fall back on if someone ends up not liking it or dropping.

So... we got our new windows, but they're not totally done. It looks like they need some finishing work. So we don't have any idea when the guys will come in again to finish it. Jon and I are all sleeping uneasily and it blows. :D

On the OTHER hand it's left me a lot of time to be inspired for gaming. I swear, wtf is with me lately? ALL I want to do is RP. *boggles*

I started another RPoL game which is Realm based and with a very amusing premise... The group is a mixed Exalt one, with the daughter of Sesus Nagezzer being supported by a splinter Sidereal group to reform Realm government, possibly even take the Throne. Splinter because the Sids are actually employing Solars in hiding to protect and aid her task, something I don't think the Bronze would do, and the Gold are too busy with their Cult to bother with.

Another PC is also her Dragon-blood husband to be. I may actually be starting this Realm game with a wedding gala, too! Heh!

'nother Abyssal char. She's actually based on a NPC I made for Wardragon 40k. (Advocate is one of the Abyssals after Archana, potentially.) This Advocate is different, though, since she was born in the Second Age, not the First. I was just lazy with names, I always liked "Advocate of the Damned" as a title. So I used it.

Wardragon Advocate is a Moonshadow, but this character is a Midnight. So she's more of a force of personality type than a socializing type. Her highest skills are Presence (went into the whole "hurt if you try to attack her" Charm branch) and Thrown (Crypt Bolt and Eyes Like Daggers Glance, mmm). Working on Performance (for orations, she's something of a preacher of the end of days) and Resistance (eventually want the Adamant Skin mirror, yay soak!)

I also gave her Martial Arts as favored, though she doesn't know a MA yet. And Linguistics, too, there's some fun charms in that Ability I hope to use.

Here's the kinda crappy background I wrote for her during an insomnic bout :P

I did all my errands on Wednesday. It was hard. I had a lot of anxiety issues. My anxiety gets so terrible nowadays... if I'm doing something that I find stressful, and something unexpected goes wrong, I start to totally freak out. Or I'll focus on too many problems at once (even ones unrelated to what I'm doing immediately).

If I get bad enough I start to panic. I have trouble breathing and I get really irrationally scared of loud noises, which makes it hard to walk around in a big city. I don't regret moving to Montreal for that, I've always really *liked* the city! But my anxiety makes it harder to enjoy what I normally like... :/

Anyway, since then I've just been sitting at home unwinding. Pretty much just poking at RPoL games as usual, though I feel like I spent too much time on them the past couple days.

Drupal 6.6, now. Had security updates and such. I really ought to automate the process of updating but I'm way too nervous about it to just not do it by hand. :P

Eventually I'll have to update everything to D7, anyway, I don't think the python route will be happening for a while longer since I'm lazytastic at figuring it out. Heh.

The other big thing was updating various modules like Views, Content Construction Kit, Date, etc... fortunately the people working on those seem to be working together to ensure their modules work right together, so that's nice.

Well, that's probably the most productive thing I've done in weeks, if you don't count my RPoL games...

(some ramble about them below)

RPoL obsession... still going strong.

Outcastes, I am starting to feel better about again since moving the game onto a more interesting encounter.

Five Coils, I already have 8 players for, wtf? Well, technically 7. But it is SO not hard to find players. And yeah, that includes at least halfway decent ones. For that game I pretty much personally asked people to join, I got a yes from all but one.

Hmm. I think I am not all that sucky at this after all. Problem is that all I do now is RPoL, and almost NOTHING ELSE. I kinda worry I don't give myself other things to pay attention to or do. Jon keeps saying it's ok... because it makes me happy, and barring being able to do ANYTHING else about my situation of complete life stagnation and NO good news in the mail, that's pretty much the best I can do to stay sane.

Well I don't want to think about the crap right now. So moving on...

Outcastes game is disappointing a little... not 'cause of my efforts, but more 'cause I seem to have a group that mostly likes being tossed in the action, and I so don't mesh well with those who don't see any fun in anything that's not combat or otherwise moving towards some concrete goal. :(

I had one even say after the fact that I made a mistake by not putting people in the action right away. Probably true -- if I don't know the group it's best to start with action. But I'd had my hopes up for people who actually enjoyed their character concepts enough to flesh them out without action to be an impetus (note: I've met people like that in RPoL! I was just unlucky and didn't get any this time around.)

Anyway, after all that my pride kicked in and I thought "Y'know I really COULD do an action-y, immediate goal oriented game" and decided I'd start up Escape from Five Coils instead. I was impatient to start a second game... RPoL games are always slow, and it'll take me some time to figure out how I'll do Lion-Bull War properly (if at all) due to the Mass Combat stuff.

Yeah. I think I really enjoy it. o.o It's just involved enough to keep me happy, and doesn't keep me so busy I can't walk away from it when I need to. But doesn't trigger my anxiety much at all. It has, once or twice, but I have sufficient time to deal with it as necessary.

That said, I have this freaking urge to start Lion-Bull War already. I dunno. I just... really need forum games right now. And these games really do something to keep me focused and not utterly crushingly depressed for some reason. I REALLY would like anyone interested in playing LBW to inform me right away though, because I always prefer to take people I know over people I don't. :(

I'm also worried I may end up too obsessed with RP to even pay attention to anything else in my life, which is NOT good. But... "anything else in my life" is pretty much utter shit right now, and I lose a little bit more of my sanity every time I even think about it.

Wow... my writing ability is shot. Too much RPoL. I swear, I need to do something else with my time for a while. But man do I really love writing. There's something empowering about it for me that I've missed in a lot of other activities I've done.

Not-quite-secretly I am actually co-GMing in another RPoL game, besides the Outcastes one I'm running. I do not know how long I'll keep doing it. I figure until next year or something like that. I'll have all the winter months for plenty of sitting on my ass writing.

'Cause I apparently can't stick to what I said I'd work on (though I'll get to the other stuff this week!!) I ended up putting up all the preliminary info for my first RPoL game, Outcastes on the Open Sea. It's something of an unofficial Grandquest sequel, you could say, as well as an opportunity for Jon and I to play Jadira and Lasuri again.

I plan to be taking RTJs for at least a week. I want people to actually take their time thinking about it, and enough time to build a decent amount of applications to choose from.

Tomorrow(ish) I'm going to start advertising in some of the games I play... tonight, though, I thought I'd post the link to the game here for people who read this journal. Since I know many of you personally, I figured you guys should get first chance at trying to create a character, if anyone wanted to. :O

P.S. Kraken, your chara is already accepted by default ^^ though if you've the time to type out the RTJ that'd be great.