This week, I've been trying to rest more. I'm tentatively resuming Five Coils on Sept 13. I've been trying to kick the Academy into shape, though am unsure it's working. Wondering if I should try to get players from elsewhere, or just give up on the game and run something new when I'm more in the mood for it. (Soul Collectors 3.0, man, I still really want to run that game but am afraid I'll screw up or lose inspiration again. :/)

Outcastes is slow, but starting to reach the end of the current threads (FINALLY) so I am reserving some hope for it, particularly since I'm considering recruiting a couple more people (an Air Aspect and another Half-Blood). Not sure yet.

And there's other games I'm interested in running (no, not all at the same time):
- Celestial Exalts in the Threshold, aka 'vanilla Exalted' more or less.
- The Window RPG: I haven't forgotten this. Want to run it, considering a 'noir mystery' type game in a near-future urban fantasy setting.
- Emberdays: A revival? Is it worth it?
- FFRPG: Still definitely an adventure game. Not sure now whether I'd run Returners or the 2d6 system.
- Psyche Labyrinthine: My old D&D 4e idea, a solo game for Jon. :)

I'll be gone on my birthday and most of the day after (23rd and part of 24th). Reason is cause I'm going to spend some time away with Jon, we've got a hotel reservation and everything.

I kinda need to get away from the computer, I think. I have a lot of pent up rage lately and writing is really tiring me (yet I am still up here typing. I think it's because my masochistic streak keeps making me want to deprive myself of sleep on purpose.)

The rage part has something to do with my recent feelings of rejection, too. I do not handle that well, it actually makes me want to just plain cut off and never communicate with whomever I feel rejected me. :P

Oh, I think I said I'd mention these... here are the characters I made lately.

And just when my mood was looking up. :/

Right now my finger hurts for typing so I might not be able to do much online for at least a couple days. I was getting pissed off about something and hit my nail so hard it bent backward and now it hurts when I press the fingertip on stuff.

Also I got the thought of quitting Outcastes because I am sick of that one player still trying to work out more freaking advantages for himself when I'm trying to set up this scenario to teach him a lesson. He pissed off a storm mother in a seafaring game, and the only way I could work it out believably without ruining things for everyone else was to force the guy into a duel with her. Then he starts asking for even more ways to cheat around the rules she put down for the duel. :/ I allowed the first one but the others are a no-go!

I went out again today, to make a phone call about my check card. The bank told me I have to wait until a month before the expiration 'cause that's when they send the new one out. I tried to get them to send it sooner but they wouldn't. :( So I have to wait and get my parents to forward it next July.

I'm liking that I've been out every day the past three days. Just doing little things at a time, but I'm doing things and I'm getting less anxious. Definitely need more time and exposure to being outside to build my confidence, though.

Next Jan. I hope to finally get started on some French classes, since I won't be in university till the fall. (Again, assuming I get accepted, though I heard from my therapist not long ago that she already sent off the letters on my behalf. That's very encouraging.)

Mmm, I spent a while today playing in this awesome new MMO: Atlantica. It's a turn based strategy MMO set in some sort of alternate real world (maybe 1500s ish?), and I am enjoying it enough that I think it'll be a keeper. :D More about that later.

Oh and I went and messed with the PS3 for a bit also. Jon and I finished Metal Gear Solid 4 a little while ago, and since it's our only game (right now) we were poking around with the Playstation Store. Downloaded some free demos, including Star Wars: The Force Unleashed, which is *really* great fun to play. I had a blast with the controls, and marveling at the very real physics engine (force grip, whee!)

But first the bad stuff...