dragonrealms

I went out again today, to make a phone call about my check card. The bank told me I have to wait until a month before the expiration 'cause that's when they send the new one out. I tried to get them to send it sooner but they wouldn't. :( So I have to wait and get my parents to forward it next July.

I'm liking that I've been out every day the past three days. Just doing little things at a time, but I'm doing things and I'm getting less anxious. Definitely need more time and exposure to being outside to build my confidence, though.

Next Jan. I hope to finally get started on some French classes, since I won't be in university till the fall. (Again, assuming I get accepted, though I heard from my therapist not long ago that she already sent off the letters on my behalf. That's very encouraging.)

Mmm, I spent a while today playing in this awesome new MMO: Atlantica. It's a turn based strategy MMO set in some sort of alternate real world (maybe 1500s ish?), and I am enjoying it enough that I think it'll be a keeper. :D More about that later.

Oh and I went and messed with the PS3 for a bit also. Jon and I finished Metal Gear Solid 4 a little while ago, and since it's our only game (right now) we were poking around with the Playstation Store. Downloaded some free demos, including Star Wars: The Force Unleashed, which is *really* great fun to play. I had a blast with the controls, and marveling at the very real physics engine (force grip, whee!)

But first the bad stuff...

We finally got our Playstation 3 from Amazon! My father-in-law bought it as a gift for my husband and me. An early birthday present, I guess. ^^ Jon's birthday is November 10, after all. *hugs her husband* I will have to write a thank you for my inlaws. Hmm!

Gah and it's cold right now. I wish I could snuggle him actually. Brrrr. Fall weather. It's actually colder in this apartment than it used to be in our old one, but that's probably 'cause we have so many windows. Going to have to bundle up and wear blankets and stuff when it gets winter-y.

Ah but back to the topic. We bought Metal Gear Solid 4: Guns of the Patriots to play with our shiny new PS3. So we may be kinda, like... very much absent for the next couple days. :D At least until Sunday 'cause I have Wardragon then, and also arranged a meeting in DR with a couple of friends in the White Rose.

Edit: Phantasy Star 0 is coming for DS in Japan. o.O I am half miffed because it's more PSO ish than pre-Phantasy Star 1, but... I still want it. :P Eventually!

Now to continue my "let's not stay inside and be a hermit" efforts, I'm going out again today. Hopefully I will be in a good mood this time. I'm wearing clothes I like and I feel ok (I even got a decent face wash so my face feels clean) and my ear infection is going away.

I always feel kind of silly posting about "OOH I'M GOING OUT" but as I've said before, for me this is often a big thing. My mix of depression and anxiety leads to agoraphobic tendencies (especially now, while I'm still waiting on various papers and IDs) at times, and I have to fight that a lot so I don't end up languishing away indoors.

Anyway, I'm mostly going out to get a sound card for my computer. And I think we may go out to eat and see a movie cause we never got to last time. I'm going to be back by the time Kalli finishes work (hehe, 10 pm is "Kalli finishes work hour" now.) She wanted to play Last Chaos with us -- though OOH, she's going to be able to renew DR very soon now! I was telling Terra I was starting to get a little DR-apathetic, and having her in game again would TOTALLY reverse that for me.

*goes before it gets too late* :O

I'm tired but I wanted to post a bit...

Earlier, Manze (my friend from DR) was poking me about trying this MMO called Last Chaos (Aeria Games, same makers as DOMO that I tried a little while ago). So I did, and I got Jon to join and maybe Kalli will later.

Here are our characters (I'm the blond healer) and here's a closeup of the mage cause it amuses me Manze is playing this dommie-ish chick (he wanted to play mage, but unfortunately LC doesn't let you choose your gender.) Jon is the knightly beefcake. :D

now, about the rest of the day and yesterday...

Sooo I don't know if I will be around much today, I'm going out to explore another part of Montreal. There's a big gaming store there and I want to see it. May buy a RPG book or two, we'll see.

Tomorrow there is a DR event (White Rose ball) which I absolutely must be around for. n.n I feel like I've been slacking on PSU lately but between my hermit-hiding and various other stuff, I haven't had time to play at all. :( :( I could actually play PSU like, earlier in the day on Saturday though. Or later tonight.

Emberdays - not sure yet. x.x I'm starting to feel more like wanting to run it (being in games where people are all "KILL/TAKE OVER THE REALM!!" makes me all in a Dynast-playing mood, heh) but I feel bad about all the delays. :/ I'll give word about it by the weekend.

Annoyingly, I have both my headache acting up again and my ear infection (which fortunately was minor enough that it seems to be healing ok on its own). Blech, hope today will be fun and not pain.

Hrm hrm. I'm being lazy. :( I feel bad about it. But I also REALLY needed it. I just have to be able to kick myself out of it by this week.

I seem to be getting a lot of RP opportunities lately, thanks to friends. :D Kalli's starting to poke about starting a Space Navy game using Dragonstar d20 rules (I discovered, much to my happy surprise, that I really LIKE the Dragonstar setting). And Selina wants to play something with Jon and me, possibly Japanese historical in Heian or Sengoku period, or another shot at L5R.

Mostly, though, it's just been DR and RPoL.

Okay so I have a sinus headache, I'm pretty sure that's what it is now. And it sucks. :( Eni and Selina talked about saline rinses and I was all "nuuuuu don'wanna." The idea of sticking liquid in my nose voluntarily boggles my mind. Makes me think I'm making myself drown. x.x

On the other hand, it's neither tolerable nor realistic to have this kind of chronic pain long term. So either the meds I get tomorrow help or it's salt water for me. D:

What else... uh. I totally blanked on what I wanted to write about. I've been sitting here with Kalli, coming up with amusing DR pairings. I got her to start writing Tiv/Kssarh (for srs!) and she just can't stop. Now she's tempting me into writing another pairing that, my god, would get me burned on the stake for considering. :D So it is a sekrit!

I started yet another version of my tag reform, but it's not finished, and I'm too tired to work on it now. n.n Also, RPoL was down for most of today. :( :( My RP fix!! So I hope to get much tag-sorting and RP posting after my errands for tomorrow are done!

Well, I've mostly been relaxing this week, and I guess that's a good thing because I'm coming out of a really stressful high. I feel a little bad because I'm being pretty insular lately, hard to reach except in DR... but I really just need some time to myself.

I have an appointment to make my new bank account this Monday (good thing I'm not running ED that week), and I want to start my college application process in earnest by next month. I hope that I'll run Emberdays all right, too, because messing that up could affect my mood and confidence when it comes to accomplishing other more important things.

For now it's just been a lot of Dragonrealms, as I said. I'm either doing interviews for the White Rose, or training Talliska's survivals (at my last count, I need 10 scouting, 7 foraging, 6 climbing, 6 swimming, 6 evasion to catch up to the new Ranger requirements. Sounds like a lot but it was WAY worse before!)

I've been having a hard time figuring out how to write entries lately, for some reason. Like so much has happened, or is in the process of happening, that I just have NO idea where to start, where to end and how to divide it up.

Well, to make it easy for myself I'll open with the easier topic, that is, my return to online life. :O

First thing I did coming back was get back on AIM and IRC, of course. That was on Friday. Immediately had a lot of chatting to do. ^^; I was missed, despite all my usual fears, and that was nice to know, even though for a while there I was thinking about not returning at all.