Ah, I forgot to mention... I figured out how to unblock myself with Clarissa's sheet. I'm going to just omit the entire bio I wrote so far! I decided I was having too much trouble wording it just right, and might as well just express the details it in game if/when the opportunity comes.

Doesn't mean the writing is wasted -- I have a LOT of useful biographical information to draw from in my RP, now. And I'm not omitting a bio entirely, either. I'm just going to do it as I originally intended: as a summary in the form of bullet points. :P It should be good enough to explain things in general, and Selina can always ask in private if she needs clarifications (or, again, I can expound through RP.)

Anyway, I'll work on that when I wake. The other thing I wanted to mention was that I got actual SNAIL MAIL for Purple Pirates Productions! *boggle* A Canadian domain registrar was offering me to register sim-chan with them. Of course I'll refuse; I have a great deal with HostForWeb already. But it just amused me to get actual, physical mail for Purple Pirates / sim-chan. Maybe Eni will find it odd/amusing too.

I'm winding towards the end of Clarissa's bio and I really wish I'd just stuck with bullet points (except that my bullet points kept turning into paragraphs anyway, grrrr). I really don't want to care about whether the last bits are even remotely accurate, argh. Just want to be done =_= DONE I say!

I really don't think I'll be able to do or enjoy anything else fully until it's done, so... I really have to bite the bullet (badum-tssshhh) and finish. =_=

One exception (to the enjoyment statement), though, is RP:

Creepy Ryshy is creepy, seriously. o.O At least Kraken and J seem to agree with me. ^^;

It's actually been kind of difficult writing her as the Lamenting Madonna of Maladies, mostly because... well! she's kinda imbalanced. "Kinda" being an understatement, I guess. I believe that the real Ryshy is still buried in there despite it all, but piled on top of that is a lot of self-hate, and shame for what she's let her captors do to her. Enough of it that she's kind of inverted and willfully embraced it rather than live tortured by the guilt of it.

The hard part for me has been trying to express the wrath, disgust, guilt, pleasure and still show the traces of compassion beneath it all. Compassion, and a sliver of hope that she can still be saved, that Alexsei would still love her despite it all.

(Urm, yah, I talk about some icky bodily things in this entry so if that bugs you don't bother reading. On the other hand, if you want to know where I've been lately, let's just say I'm recuperating from an illness of sorts that makes it hard for me to sit in one place for long periods of time. *sigh* Hopefully it will be over soon.)

Walking around, switching buses back and forth, going places just to find out we can't do what we came to do... I was very, very miserable, and I had to do all of it with a horribly uncomfortable infection (mentioned last post, just... ew. x.x) I pretty much just don't want to go out any more until it's healed. D:

Furthermore I am very much in the mood to sit and binge-play Sims 2 all day, so that is what I am going to do. I'll be back on Thursday, hopefully able to SIT for longer periods of time, and in less of an irritable mood. Believe me, you don't want to be around me when I'm inclined to snap at the smallest thing that annoys me. :/

I need to get out of this block with Clarissa's sheet, too, damnit. D: I WILL finish it by the end of the week! All that remains to be done is... choose her Hearthstone (which I am thinking will be sorcery related), write fluff on flaws and manse, and write her biography. The last is the hardest because it'll require me to do some research, which I think I'm the most lazy about. I mean... I'm not a historian or anything. =_= But I guess Selina will check it out when it's done and poke at me if there's anything historically inconsistent.