archana

RPoL obsession... still going strong.

Outcastes, I am starting to feel better about again since moving the game onto a more interesting encounter.

Five Coils, I already have 8 players for, wtf? Well, technically 7. But it is SO not hard to find players. And yeah, that includes at least halfway decent ones. For that game I pretty much personally asked people to join, I got a yes from all but one.

Hmm. I think I am not all that sucky at this after all. Problem is that all I do now is RPoL, and almost NOTHING ELSE. I kinda worry I don't give myself other things to pay attention to or do. Jon keeps saying it's ok... because it makes me happy, and barring being able to do ANYTHING else about my situation of complete life stagnation and NO good news in the mail, that's pretty much the best I can do to stay sane.

Well I don't want to think about the crap right now. So moving on...

I went and did something productive today! It was small, but I still got dressed (in record time, too... usually takes me so long =_=), went out and did something responsible.

I just had to go and call to cancel my health insurance in the U.S. My mom couldn't do it herself because they needed confirmation straight from me. But I couldn't call from home because the phone line isn't working right now. :(

So that meant I had to go outside to use a phone there. Which could have totally been a freakout moment (agoraphobia + anxiety from responsibilities) but I went and put on a little bit of "Archana attitude" and it actually worked. o.O I was okay!

I'm pretty content now for once... I mean, I won't say it'll last (it rarely does) but if I can have those moments more often than not, I'm doing something right.

I ended up writing a long email to my mom today.

While doing so I was trying to explain why I didn't want contact with my... other parent. While I was writing it, I recounted some of the symptoms I have that are signs of emotional trauma in the past:

- chronic stress pains, trouble sleeping
- nightmares of being intimidated / threatened by him
- fear of loud, sudden noises (similar to PTSD in war veterans, I explained)
- debilitating anxiety when faced with others' expectations, even if imagined
- inappropriate guilt and worthlessness (further exacerbated by my depression)

I thought to myself, writing all this out, "you know what... if I didn't know me and I read that, I'd think the person who wrote it was abused."

First of all, up too late. SIGH. I wanted to sleep 3 hours ago but Jon wanted to cook all late (really late). Meh. I found something to distract myself while waiting and decided I'd apply for a D&D 4th Edition game on RPoL.

No clue if I'll make the cut, but I gave it an ok effort for something scrapped together in a couple hours.

I'm posting this mostly as I did in my request to join the game. I'm lazy, and it's late. Also, if you're wondering, the setting's a custom setting, so I went and expanded on some bits and pieces the DM wrote for it so far, and tried to make it work for my concept.

(Hrifa was originally conceived as a D&D 4e dragonborn version of Archana. I didn't want to make her a cleric, though. So I gave an entirely different impetus for her relentlessness...)

So I've been letting myself rest... it's nice. ^^

Today I've just been playing Etrian Odyssey 2, messing with DR and chatting with peoples.

I found out there is interest in me making a Tower Between Worlds MUD again. :O It looks like it might be based on Smaug, which happens to be one of the types of muds I've never played. Figures! It's more of the hack n' slash type, so there will be actual potential for combat and character advancement, unlike previous Tower projects. *boggles at this*

But it'll be a small project, more like a playground for a few of us to mess with building and writing descriptions and such. Mostly it'll be Eni and Kalli and me, it looks like. Maybe others if there is interest.

Dunno yet when it'll be set up -- probably next month? Or Sept? So let me know if working on Tower MUD interests you.

Bwahhaa log time.

I was playing Archana, and kind of... sucking at it because I was having trouble getting inspired. (Wah. But it's really hard to write stunts for normal attacks every turn, and have them not sound the freaking same every time.)

Anyway, Archa is fighting a god of slaughter, and the battle's kind of on the slow side. She's not built for offense as much as defense. So, except for a couple lucky shots from Archa's sword, they're kinda just poking at each other ineffectually. I tried to use Burden of Permanence but it kind of phailed without a combo to boost her damage, which I'm likely going to stunt-learn next turn.

Meanwhile, Archa managed to block the entire damage from the god's HUGE attack. But it also had some funky poison with it, that basically makes you fly into a RAGE. Archa resisted it enough so that she can control her rage, but she's still PISSED nonetheless.

So I got accepted to theworldrp. I'm starting to play Juri already (here's her LJ, btw: la dame vaillante, which means "the valiant lady") which has been fun. :O

Apparently Kalli says I am a big hit. ?! Not sure how that happened. I ended up getting onto an AIM chat with a bunch of the girls RPing in "the world" and they all seem really nice and fun. I am seriously UNUSED to being accepted in fandom. I mean... this is the first time I've done ANYTHING related to fandom since the Breath of Fire days. Crazy. But they're great ladies. I felt welcome... I really, really appreciate that.

As for the RP... I kinda feel like I'm cheating, really. My characterization of Juri is not all that far off from Archana. In fact, I ultimately chose her for just that reason. The difference of course is that Archa is a soldier/priestess, and Juri more of a socialite/aristocrat.

I really hate when I lose my posts... Now I have to rewrite all about Soul Collectors. Grrrr.

It went all right, though, and the players were great to work with (even the ones I originally thought might flake out or be problematic somehow.) Thy are used to a faster-paced game than I usually play/run, though, and I found that a bit hard to get used to, at first. Keeping up will be something I'll have to try hard at whenever I run -- though on the other hand, since everyone's posting so fast, there isn't nearly as much need to spend on detail.

Unfortunately, that ALSO means that when I do want detail, I have to describe as much as I can ahead of time. x.x

The players *seemed* to like the premise, which was to bring a Solar sorcerer to the center of the Black Chase and protect her as she casts the Benediction of Archgenesis, on the new moon of Ascending Water.

Still having lots of trouble sleeping, and I'm *about* to nap... just have so many people msging me about things. Since when did I get so active online again? It kinda just... happened. So odd. o.o

Just to summarize... today was mostly me posting for Wardragon, looking at character sheets for Soul Collectors, and playing some DR.

Wardragon didn't get all that many posts... Grey was feeling kinda braindead, and the setup of the current session is pretty fragmented (pretty much *everyone* is doing their own thing right now). But! I got to have Archana do an awesome prayer stunt. And she pissed off a god of slaughter and he's going to try to kick her ass, with hundreds of bloody, pointy weapons. And lots of showy gouts of blood, apparently... Archa will have RED armor instead of white, soon enough. XD

Including:
- Wardragon 40K... awesome beyond words.
- Panoply of Faith, first Exalted session ever run by Eni! Woo Eni \o/ (Plus a lot of ramble about my Panoply chara, Tashna!)
- Yesterday's 1890's game, which ran short but was still fun!

Also some (very) brief mention of ED and Soul Collectors.

Here we go with the RP summaries: