annoyances

Well, it's Christmas morning afternoon, and I figured I should write something. I know not everyone celebrates it, so I'll just make this a general Happy Holidays to all, if you're taking a break to spend quality time with family and friends.

I have a few specific holiday messages too (for Eni and Kalli and Selina. Others already got snail mail cards from me, assuming they actually GET there. :O)

There's a lot of people I've kinda been sparing in contact with, and I'm sorry about that. ;.; This last year has been a really introverted time for me, I guess. I just need a lot of time alone. I'm worried that I'm starting to get increasingly asocial and agoraphobic (just don't feel the urge to go out much at all), but that's something I will have to think about more next year.

I wasn't really able to play FFXI at all these past couple days. x.x Just had too much to do the day before yesterday, and then we lost our connection for several hours due to another lameass contractor messing up our cable connection.

I kinda feel bad for Rin since I don't have nearly as much time to put into playing (with all the other activities I do as well, free time or not). FFXI is harder to play solo and I wanted to try to keep up together as a group. Just don't know if I can manage it... especially in the coming weeks with sis over and all that.

Oh, I wanted to mention that the anniversary celebration was actually very nice and relaxing. Thanks to all who gave well wishes! Unfortunately, I'm in a bit of a sour mood lately, and that really put a damper on the good feelings I got from relaxing with husband.

Hrm... getting on the sleepy side so let me just go through this quick. ^^ I played Panoply and 1890's game today. (Most of what I wrote in the last post was Saturday.) Both ran pretty short due to headaches, connection problems and such, but they still ran, and that's great.

(There's a bit later in the post about The World RP, too.)

Today started sucktastically... I wanted to shower before the Emberdays scene I slaved over working on, but the water was COLD. I was like "WTF GRR RAR!" and stomped around a while about that because I like taking warm showers to relax.

Few things tick me off more than not having a warm shower. (Unless it's horribly hot. Then I want a lukewarm/slightly cold shower.) The only worse concept is having the warm shower turn ice cold, and stay that way, a few minutes in. It's been like that the whole time I lived here because there's central heating. D:

The irony of all this is that the reason my water was cold today is because the apartment building is getting separate water heaters installed for every apartment. HA! So I get my own warm water -- when whatever was borked is fixed. :(

So I'm more or less finished with Rosalia's sheet [Edit: Fixed this link] -- the non-Abyssal version, anyway. It took SO LONG, though the majority of it was writing her Legends and her harp artifact. I actually love the harp. :D But mechanically, it was hard to figure out rules for. This is one of those moments is where freeform would be better. =_=

Other parts of the sheet I really like: Rosalia's servants, and the bio I wrote for her. :O The Hearthstone is nice -- but I like my idea for her second Hearthstone (which unlike the Stone of Springtime will be from an Underworld Manse) even better.

I pulled an all-nighter to finish all I wrote. Nekira said she loved the sheet, though, and didn't have any immediate issues with it. So, I'm happy.

We actually got back home earlier than I thought, 'cause we ended up hitching a ride with Jon's uncle and aunt. They were leaving a day early 'cause there's supposed to be bad weather over there today, and they didn't want to be driving out in heavy snow (understandably!) So we decided to go with them.

I kinda wish we just spent the extra money for the bus, though. Well, on one hand, it gave us time for me to buy some computer parts on sale after the trip back. But on the other hand, Jon's uncle was smoking like a chimney in the pickup (and sitting in the back seat of a pickup sucks already -- ow my ass!) Which might've not been so bad except he didn't even bother putting the window down, WTF??? God, I was suffocating in there, and I was really ticked off because the nasty cigarette smoke was settling into my clothes, not to mention inside my LUNGS.

Blech. Smoking is bad, mmmmkay?

1. False modesty.
2. Faking friendships for convenience.

And for super duper hypocritical bonus, I have done #2 before. I am not sure about #1.

Man, I've been really moody and irritable lately. I think I'm slowly getting out of it because I at least realize that it's irrational to a certain extent. I hope it goes away soon. I'm not really all that fun to be around right now... and I start feeling guilty about all the whining and worrying and snapping at people after a while.

I'm still pondering whether I will run ED this coming week or not. My gut feeling tells me to wait until I am not so god damned snappish. [Edit: I did just think of some stuff I can run for Garenth tonight though. So maybe I still will.]

Of all my friends there are only two or three (a few more if I count acquaintances too) I know of that are married. So among the people I know, I am generally a minority as a married person.

Looking at certain married couples compared to me and Jon, I'm starting to realize why some people fear marriage. Even more than graduating from college, marriage seems to be this point in your life where you have to accept facing huge responsibilities that ultimately preoccupy your life to the point of taking over. Well, that's the general impression, anyway, and there's a truth to it. People generally get married when they're financially stable (meaning a steady job), with the intention to own a house and/or have a family. Between job and kids and spending time with hubby/wifey, your free time starts to shrink a lot.

What I don't like about this whole process is that it apparently can make you boring.

Couple randomly odd/amusing things happened lately:

1) On MSN, someone named "Luc" sent me messages. He(?) called me "Minky". I have no clue who that was but he seemed to think I was someone he knew well and really wanted to talk to. The thing I find the most odd is that I don't remember approving this person to even add me to their MSN list. o.O

2) I just looked at my log of system messages and saw "Login attempt failed for PORNO." (I am even more amused by the fact that putting PORNO in this entry will probably lead to even more of those sorts of logins. :P Fortunately, they are harmless. UNTIL they try to make stupid bogus accounts on my site! DAMN YOU SPAM BOTS)

The system messages Drupal provides are actually pretty enlightening. Now I can finally see what's going on behind the scenes! It pops up messages for all the 404's on darksiren.net, also, for example. There are still a lot due to google not picking up the new links while discarding the old, I think. Bah.