alcohol

Wooooo, I had wine. (It was red, of course... a merlot.) Mmm. I totally don't hold my alcohol well. But, I still feel good.

We splurged and went to a really, *really* nice steakhouse called Charbon, not very far from where we live in Old Quebec. This place has the *perfect* ambiance for a romantic date. :O Warm (reddish hues) but not too bright lighting, spacious tables and seating... just perfect. The feeling I got from eating there is that they are a high class restaurant, but there isn't an elitist attitude to it, as if you have to be a certain KIND of person to get ideal service. Customer service and comfort is as highly ranked as their food, which is beyond fantastic.

I felt happier than I have in a long time. Simply because I finally went and did something about a person/situation that was bothering me for a while. And the result turned out all right, at least initially... though I am not sure what others will think of it.

That and I had some booze, heh. :D A whole glass of orange juice and apricot brandy mix. That's a lot... for me!

But now I'm more introspective, and I feel a little bit disappointed. I guess it's the anti-climactic aftermath? I'm not sure.

I guess that I feel like the few communities I'm in are splintering. Or I myself am breaking away, for whatever reasons. I feel I have less in common with people than ever before, and I have less fun doing things I normally enjoy. Part of that is my depression, but part of it -- as I've been saying a lot lately -- is just that I need another place to be.

Nyargh... I spent several more hours messing with PmWiki. I have such a love-hate with it sometimes. I ended up needing to look at where the default wikistyles were kept, and lo and behold, they're in scripts/wikistyles.php! DUH!

I had all this trouble with the Maguila skin because I wanted to make headings that weren't sidebar links, but it messed up the spacing all bad, so I needed to make a custom class. It didn't help that the CSS for Maguila doesn't seem very well-written. I mean, there's repeated elements everywhere, for one... I took out a few of the things I thought were redundant, but I'll have to clean it up more later.

I have a basic idea of how I'll organize the wiki now (including renaming/adding some projects), but I still have to mess with the right side bars. They're going to change depending on section, while the left one remains the same... I think.

I do feel kind of anticlimactic right now, having spent SO much time on New Years' Eve on this thing and I'm STILL not done, but I won't waste the rest of the night on it. So! Time to shower and get out the booze! We have apricot brandy and coffee liqueur and Thai food! It's just a celebration of 2, it looks like (unless I skype with some people, maybe.) I wish I could be happier, but... eh. :(

It was all right. Fun, ate lots of food, got presents (mostly money, but we also got a really nice wok, and I got a Harvest Moon game for the DS.) We got Jon's brother and dad all hooked on playing DDR, too, cause we brought our mats and game. So they've been playing it a lot.

Me, I'm starting to get more into difficult level. 4-5 is where I'm best, though. 6 only sometimes. -_- I kinda want to get DDR Supernova 2 now, since it recently came out. More songs!! and stuff! And if we get it tomorrow I bet Jon's bro will want to try it. :D

He also brought a Wii and we played it a bit. I'm not sure I'm sold on the Wii yet, as in... playing games that require motion sensing. I suppose it does work your arms out a lot though. :P But the only games I've really seen for it so far are party games, so I'm probably not getting the full extent of what the console is capable of.

If you know me, prepare to not know me for a few days. :D

Actually, not really. I'll be around on the weekend (RP reasons and otherwise). Just... mm. New Sims 2 expansion. I can't wait until my computer upgrade so I can play windowed. *_*

Other than that I have a headache, and Talliska has 15 survival ranks to get before circle 26.

And I'm out of Bailey's. :O

P.S. I've been getting a huge influx of spam accounts to Drupal. I doubt any of them was a real person wanting to sign up for my site, but if you tried to sign up recently and didn't get approved please 1) submit again and 2) email me that you have made an account (with the account name specified). Thanks!

I'm gonna chug some coffee and try to make it to 3-4 am, since my ideal hours (at least until college or whatever else changes it) is sleeping from 3 to 11 or so. :P

Even better, the coffee is going to be spiked. :D I replenished our store of Bailey's Irish Cream with a fresh new bottle while we were out. Also bought the Exalted book I wanted, and -- I couldn't resist it -- a Balthier figure (from FF12!) Kinda feel dumb and dorky for spending money on that, but sometimes I get impulsive when I'm feeling bad, I guess. *sigh*

Speaking of Exalted books, the Imaginaire was actually selling Ex1 books at marked down prices. There's actually a pack of 3 books that includes Games of Divinity. WTF whoa, an actual copy of Games of Divinity! I would have bought it if it wasn't in the pack, boooo. =_=

(Here's where the post gets more pathetic and self-deprecating so I'm separating it from the rest.)

And I feel a little better! Not just because of the coffee. I guess talking to someone on the outside puts perspective on things.

I somewhat randomly ordered a book along with my Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows preorder and my copy of Etrian Odyssey: A Practical Guide to Qabalistic Symbolism by Gareth Knight. Dunno, I was just looking around for some Kurran inspiration and that book kept coming up, so I went "fine! I'll just buy it already!" D: I suppose it was kind of impulsive, but moods like what I've been in lately tend to lead to that. ^^;

And now I am trying to write Emberdays stuff. Hopefully this coffee will jump-start my brain (I very, very much want to work on Kurran right now. But not until later!)

Finished Garenth's intro into Emberdays. I ended up having to type a great deal from Magister Kaukas' point of view (I just realized that totally sounds like "cock-ass" when you say it out loud. Hahahaha! Anyway!) but I had to pour a bunch of info into Garenth's brain before sending him off to Tuchara.

In terms of my anxiety, a little bit of spiked coffee helped a lot, actually! (Not to mention being delicious, mmmmm Baileys.) Also, I was all excited 'cause I took a look at some info about the Ambitions of Illuminus beta that's going on on the PSU JP servers right now. <3 That's the PSU expansion that's coming... soon, I hope? The new content looks awesome (REINA NEED SLICER NOW), as does the miscellaneous changes to things like player rooms and hairstyles. Oh and there seems to be two new class types, too. Can't wait!

Gonna play PSU now I think... and drink more spiked coffee! WHOO! I FEEL GOOD!

HI! Um, I'm back from going out. I felt like booze. Not like, hard stuff so much as mixed drinks and just chilling out. We got Absolut vodka and juices, and more Bailey's 'cause I wanted Bailey's coffee later. (I'm totally going to try drinking some right before Emberdays tomorrow. Not too much. But if it settles me down enough to run without freaking out, HELL YEAH I'm doing it.)

We went out to eat at a tasty Chinese buffet called Tomas Tam. I think I got the name right, anyway. We took our time to make the best of our money -- ate a couple plates (fried rice, imperial rolls, another dish I dunno the name of, and also some Quebec/Canadian ish food, potatoes and this stew-like dish) and also dessert (a small slice of berry pie with green tea ice cream). Sounds like a lot, but we just sampled a little bit of each. It was lots of fun. ^_^

First of all, I'm drinking. :D Woo! Alchy! It's red wine though, not mixed drinks. I like mixed drinks but we have nothing to mix! So I'm having red wine. Earlier I drank it too fast and was all flushed and bloodshot eyes and everything. ^^;;; Damned Asian alcohol tolerance!

We were just talking to my sis on Skype, too. That was a lot of fun. Sis and I don't talk all that much nowadays, so when we do we always have a lot to say. We talked a lot yesterday night, too, along with Clark (though not a lot with him, since he's working on a project right now). This time, though, sis and I did video chat too, and she even did a tarot reading for me.