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So I got accepted to theworldrp. I'm starting to play Juri already (here's her LJ, btw: la dame vaillante, which means "the valiant lady") which has been fun. :O

Apparently Kalli says I am a big hit. ?! Not sure how that happened. I ended up getting onto an AIM chat with a bunch of the girls RPing in "the world" and they all seem really nice and fun. I am seriously UNUSED to being accepted in fandom. I mean... this is the first time I've done ANYTHING related to fandom since the Breath of Fire days. Crazy. But they're great ladies. I felt welcome... I really, really appreciate that.

As for the RP... I kinda feel like I'm cheating, really. My characterization of Juri is not all that far off from Archana. In fact, I ultimately chose her for just that reason. The difference of course is that Archa is a soldier/priestess, and Juri more of a socialite/aristocrat.

Talking to sis this afternoon, I'm thinking that I'm way more intolerant than her. Hmm. I don't mean on a large scale (i.e. prejudice against certain types or groups of people, 'cause I tend to take a "do/be whatever you want, long as it doesn't hurt anyone" stance with that) but more on an individual scale.

Basically, she's more willing to put up with people than I am. Actually, I think plenty of people out there are more tolerant than me. I get easily annoyed by certain traits, and as soon as it registers to me that it bothers me, I just try to minimize or even cease communication.

I wonder if that makes me seem like I'm not giving people enough of a chance. Personally, though, I think there is a danger in being too permissive, as much as there is a consequence to shutting too many people out of your acquaintance.

...though, I'm not lonely any more, I've realized that much. Looking back on my old entries, I can't even fathom why I could have felt that way.

Well, yesterday I was supposed to RP with Nekira, my first game with Rosalia! But it ended up getting cut short 'cause I had to finalize my sheet in the afternoon (took FOREVER to figure out my Legends) -- and then, when we finally GOT started, Nekira ended up having computer problems while we had a dinner break. Oops. ^^; We still talked a lot, though, and the few posts she got through were fun and descriptive, so I'm looking forward to more.

Also, the sudden end of Nekigame (it has another name, probably... but I'm not sure what it is yet :D) gave me the time to do Talliska's interview with the Order of the White Rose. :o Apparently she did pretty well, from the reaction I got. I got to meet Mialeigh in game some time after that too, which is awesome! Mialeigh rules! :D I missed her and her player, too, whom I've been chatting with more lately on AIM. Our lives have changed and progressed a lot, but we still chat as easily as if it was 3 years ago. I LOVE that.

Kay, so I planned to run Iesan intro today, but I think I am going to bite people's heads off if I have to do ANYTHING TODAY except sit on my ass and play video games. Seriously. I don't want to go outside, I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't want to work on anything, I just want to *be alone*.

I'm pissed at myself for being this way today because I didn't want to delay Grey's entrance into Emberdays longer. But I'm still going to start Daran's party next week, even if Grey can't get Iesan's intro done this week. I know that for certain. I'm just too god damned pissed to ST today (and I had to schedule it today because Grey had stuff to do Wed-Fri). I am going to go CRAZY if I can't just take a day off for myself. Yesterday was bad enough... I was running for 10 hours, and by the end of it I was TOTALLY convinced that everything I was writing sucked. ARGH!

Oh, and on top of that, I'm starting to get *sick*. Feels like a cold. Anyway, it's just making me more cranky. =_=

I spilled water on my keyboard, that was pretty lame! I think it's working ok now, but it scared me for a bit!

Earlier, Jon went to the internet center next door to print out our latest batch of immigration documents (yeah, we have a printer, but can we afford more ink... nope! :P) and he surprised me by logging into AIM and messaging me. It was cute. :D

It reminded us a lot of the old days, like, when we were still in a long distance relationship and couldn't actually see what each other was typing just by looking at the other's screen. It made me think of all the things that attracted me to him when I fell in love with him online.

I also said later on that I think I'll really enjoy it when I'm in college and get to send him random messages between classes on my cellphone or laptop. Not that I have either yet, but I will when I'm attending Concordia. Hopefully I will be. n.n

This was a couple nights ago, and at the time I was much too preoccupied to write about it. ^^; That and I'm pushing out of my nervousness to write my thoughts and daily life on my journal, because... well, I don't really want to be silenced. As frightened as I am, and as low an opinion I have of myself, I am not intentionally doing any harm through my journal. Because I faced my error, and apologized and dealt with it, I should have nothing to feel bad about now. Right? Right.

Oh yeah, and I'm gonna be out today (to get more MacGyver episodes, among other things... heh! We almost watched the whole first season now!) But decided I'd eat something before we go so Jon is making a light brunch-y type meal, and I'm typing this meanwhile!

So, as the title says, I had a blast a couple nights ago talking to Kalli on AIM! ^_^ But it's also a convo that made me think of some things, which I will now detail.

ADoA stuff today! The Angels came back to Spire. Most scenes with big groups together tend to be really... odd after a while. Too many people talking at once!!

Ryshy got to do more or less what she wanted to, again, which is tell Selina about Ise and suggest that they talk again later about Windia plans (though no one actually mentioned Windia yet). In the meantime Alex got punched by Vorpal who was upset at him dallying with Selina. And then Vorpalex went off, so did Fiona and Days, and Kanti kinda... zoned (cause Kraken went sleepy) while the remaining five (Selina, Ise, Ryshy, Liz, Moon) talked.

It got weird. Around when people started laughing about Yozi soup. And then Ryshy kinda killed the fun part by explaining seriously about Ise, and then! People started being random. o.O That's where Ryshy kinda went... "buh?!" and tried to take stuff in stride. Until the end where she worried about Ise 'cause she walked off.