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So... I'll be back on Thursday.

Just hiding around here messing with Dragonrealms (training Talliska in serpents and vipers now. Owie, viper poison! But I've gotten lots of combat and skinning ranks!) And poking at RPoL posts (I keep making charsheets for games that don't run... helps me practice learning Ex2 rules, I guess).

Other than that I've been coming up with a new idea for a RP for Jon and me. Actually, it's not new so much as a... retelling of something old.

More or less, I'm trying to rewrite Exalted Ryshy's history. I left ADoA and I don't want to mess with anything Col or the other players created, but I still like that particular version of the character and her history. So I'm doing a sort of "Belladonna Revival", I guess you could say.

I'm realizing I really like the RPoL tools. It's a pretty good system to run tabletop games by forum. I think I'm pretty much sold on using it for my Exalted forum game, unless I could find a way to install their software on my server (ha, yeah right...)

It takes a lil getting used to, but things like being able to create custom groups (i.e. if your PCs split into smaller groups, everyone won't necessarily see what the others are doing if you set the permissions right) and having a built in die roller. The roller has privacy settings, accounts for many different types of tabletop systems, and even options for GMs to fudge rolls. So, it's cool :O

The ONLY complaint I have is that the games are rather slow. But, it's the sort of pace I can definitely keep up if I'm going to college or working, or even just doing my own projects and things (which as you know can take a lot of my time as well).

Some more details.

Well, okay, not many, but something better than the last post. :P [Edit: actually, this post is longer than I expected it to be. Oh well.]

(Oh and before I continue. I removed the "I left ADoA" post, but it is still true that I left ADoA and #unshaped and am not coming back to either. The post removal has to do with not wanting to draw further attention to my leaving, and exacerbate the hard and/or uncomfortable feelings on both sides because of it.)

Okay, let's see if I can try to summarize what happened with the interview:

I just attempted to explain Exalted to someone who doesn't know Exalted. o.o And I barely really touched on the whole WORLD of Exalted either, just more about what the different Exalted are, and how they interrelate (history of the First Age and all that junk.)

It was pretty tough to write, and I did it all by memory so I don't know if I got all the facts right. But I was all determined to write it out because of the prospect I could RP with Wally. It's been years and years since we've known each other and we've NEVER RPed! If I could rope her into an Exalted game (or any other game, really) that would absolutely RULE. Especially since I know she would not be hard on me when I have my bouts of anxiety and such.

Besides losing 'net for a few hours today, I'm still feeling a bit burned and just need some time to myself.

Oh, and we went today to get the other game Jon wanted for PSP (MGS: Portable Ops) and I got a NIS game... um... what was it called? Aedis Eclipse! Another strategy game, of course... I mean... I rarely play anything else now.

So, anyway, I'll be back tomorrow... maybe I can get some ED RP in. if not with Selina, then this scene Jon and I have wanted to do for a while. It's rather sekrit. :D Or maybe I can rope Eni into playing Ise/Ryshy/Alexsei. *twirls rope*

Or maybe some PSU, since some #unshaped people are getting interested. Psh... I expect the interest to quickly die while I am away. *shrugs!* But it's worth a shot!

I feel emotionally exhausted...
Tomorrow is another day...
For now I am going to play some games until I can sleep.

I missed talking to Lumi much today, which sucked... I wonder if I sounded kind of snarky. :P I probably did, I'm rather short tempered right now. Sorry about that, Lumi. ;.;

Also I did at least get Selina/Ryshy scene done, and Lim and Garenth played. AND I wrote a Terrestrial spell for weather alteration, though I have to adjust it now... going to wait for Kraken to get back from his trip so I can discuss Col's suggestions with someone who is better at Exalted rules than me.

Oh! Here is Ryshy's spell list I wrote up recently, I think it's a rather fun mix:

Well, there was neither Wardragon nor 1890's game today. *sniff* But, I was able to finish scene with Garenth and Valeriya. Which is good. Though I am not exactly sure they will get along very well, I'm kinda hoping Lim will soften relations some (if they don't do it themselves).

I have a lot to play before the next game day, sheesh. Finishing Milena in the baths, I hope, will be tomorrow. I wanted to try to get Garenth's meeting out of the way... that's Tuesday. Then I'll be gone Weds and Thurs, 'cause Weds is Halloween and Charles will be over -- it's his birthday then! Dunno if he'll be able to stay overnight or not, but I'll bake him a birthday cake (or maybe cookies, I'm better at cookies), we'll watch some movies and stuff... and the next day I'll just relax!

I played scene with Selina last night and it was actually pretty fun ^^ looking at it now I kinda wonder if Ryshy's attitude with Selina is too much different than how she was with Kanti. Then again, Selina and Kanti are also very different people. And the way Selina approached the conversation it was difficult for Ryshy to try and put on a smile on things (though there were parts of even the Kanti visit that she was anything but smiling).

And Kanti had Xue. Cuteness defeats all, apparently. o.O

I like the way Selina/Ryshy is going, though. It's the first time I really get to express the "other side" of what Ryshy learned from her captivity. With Kanti she expressed how easy it was to fall... with Selina, there's an agreement on the temptation inherent in "darkness", but also a realization that it can be a strength as well. At least, in the sense of "darkness" implying action without the thought of consequence.

First of all, here's an amusing pic Lumi showed me. Pinching has consequences!!! (Also, hawt Link for anyone who is a Link fan. I'm not so much, but still. :D)

Right now I am enjoying getting into the forums at Tar Valon. It's a large and friendly community and I'm getting a good feeling about meeting like-minded people there. One of the senior members already said it seems like we have a lot in common, that was encouraging. I can only hope I'll be good at staying in touch. ^^;;

Also, my ATI Theater 550 TV tuner card is working wonderfully! The hard part was not the hardware installation, but finding good software to work with it, because the one it is packaged with is slow as molasses. We ended up trying GetAllMedia, and after a LOT of tweaking that Jon was so graciously patient to do for me, my PS2 games run beautifully on my monitor. No ugly background noise, and even more importantly, no time delay! YES!!!

So... I'm happy! I'm going to play more Kanti/Ryshy today, and otherwise relax with a new forum, PS2 games and possibly some PSU tonight! For the weekend, there will be much ED pondering to do. I WILL get through it!

I talked to people briefly today and it was nice. Mostly Eni and Selina, a lil bit with Lumi and Kraken too. Eni was looking for some input on something bothering her, and ended up inspiring me to exercise again at the same time too. o.o Woo. I did yesterday and I will again today! That is a good thing. ^^ Thanks Eni!

Every now and then I get in these really dark moods, and then something happens that reminds me that I know some really great people and things are not as bad as I thought. I'm grateful for that.

I also started that Kanti and Ryshy scene with Kraken, which was good, if slow. I'm gradually getting a hang of post-kidnapping Ryshy, though it's weird. It involves quite a bit of implying rather than telling (which I suppose is a good writing tactic in the first place), because I think Ryshy's feelings are actually mixed. There's part of her that's shamed and devastated, and part of her who wants to face her darker side head on. Not because she wants to become it again, but to accept that it IS part of her, and by doing so, removing what control it has over her.