I was, incidentally, recently rereading some ADoA scenes. Namely the ones where Alexsei came to rescue Ryshassa after the kidnapping, when she was already deeply changed by the emotional manipulation, rape and torture she went through.

(I do still reread the Ryshy kidnapping scenes now and then when in a particularly masochistic mood.)

It struck me while reading them that I truly did not appreciate the powerful feelings my husband put into his posts as Alexsei. They were lengthy but very beautiful, personal and heartfelt, and I knew that he wasn't writing them 'for show'. He was writing them because he wanted to save not just Ryshy, but me as well. He wanted to show me that he loves me even when I hate myself, even when I try so hard to make myself look like a monster.

I'm playing Sims 3 right now, and I have been for 3 days (barred other immediate things needing doing). I'm going on a Sims marathon through the weekend! The game is just that good. [Edit: I forgot to mention, but I'm also taking a RPoL break right now. Partially so I can play more Sims 3 but mostly because I really, really feel burned out creatively.]

I want to write a more extensive review, but I'm still exploring all the options right now. I will say this: I didn't expect the game to improve as much as it did from the last version. This is really THE definitive Sims game, and it addresses a lot of things that made the previous game tedious or slow (both gameplay wise and loading time wise.) It also lets you manage your game content so much better! I can't believe how quickly the game loads and how convenient it is to play. I have PLENTY more to rave about later. :)

I am so freaking easily irritated lately. It really puts a damper on creativity, too.

Last night I ended up getting irritated at Wardragon running longer than it usually does. I hadn't eaten all day and I had PSU later so I was really grumpy at the time. It also bugged me because we were playing on Saturday which was (and may still be) ADoA time, and I got the idea in my head that people assumed it's ok to run later because ADoA always runs that late. The catch being that I'm not in that game any more -- I had to leave over a year ago.

Speaking of leaving games, I did that today on RPoL. I hadn't even been in the game more than a few days! It was just a small one though, a D&D game I made a cute lil' redheaded halfling rogue for.

It seems like am losing at least one player from Five Coils, and while I am likely getting replacements for them (two already lined up) the circumstances have me rather frustrated.

One of the people leaving is someone I had really been looking forward to playing with on RPoL. His leaving bothers me not so much because of his reasons as because I felt like he was hoping for an "out" but guiltily waiting for me to give one. I would have preferred he just told me instead of dragging it on for weeks and weeks. It's not like I couldn't already *tell*. :/ But I suppose he was trying to give it his best shot despite that.

So... I'll be back on Thursday.

Just hiding around here messing with Dragonrealms (training Talliska in serpents and vipers now. Owie, viper poison! But I've gotten lots of combat and skinning ranks!) And poking at RPoL posts (I keep making charsheets for games that don't run... helps me practice learning Ex2 rules, I guess).

Other than that I've been coming up with a new idea for a RP for Jon and me. Actually, it's not new so much as a... retelling of something old.

More or less, I'm trying to rewrite Exalted Ryshy's history. I left ADoA and I don't want to mess with anything Col or the other players created, but I still like that particular version of the character and her history. So I'm doing a sort of "Belladonna Revival", I guess you could say.