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The best cure for anger is not giving a crap, apparently. At least, that's what I'm trying.

I get angry a lot lately, about a lot of things. I have less tolerance than I used to, I suppose. I know it's made me rather snippy and irritable, and as usual, I apologize. Please tell me, though, if I really am being unreasonable. I TRY to correct my mistakes.

Lately, I've been thinking to myself: are these things really worth me getting mad about? I should either DO something about it (or keep trying as the case may be), or just get away from things or people that tick me off that much. Especially if getting away means I could be doing something more fun, more productive or more helpful to others.

I actually think my last post seemed passive aggressive, even though I didn't intend it to be. How embarrassing. x.x

Today was... okay, and bad. At one point EMO bad. Basically, a couple days back I did something stupid, and got found out though I tried not to be, and it ended up somehow blowing all out of proportion with people paranoid and stuff. ARGH. Well, I learned my lessons and I explained to people what was up, so now it's better.

I feel like I am a bad friend to people sometimes. It really makes me sad to think I might have hurt or insulted someone I care about, even unintentionally. It's actually a quite dangerous feeling. People react to shame in different ways; mine comes out as a desire to withdraw from people and find some sort of twisted "relief" by debasing myself. Some way to show, in writing or in thought, that yes, I feel guilty -- I feel lower than dirt, and I'll show you exactly how low that goes.

Okay, my eyes are really killing me again, so I'll try to make this short (ha! me write something short? :O)

We were supposed to go out today, but the sleeping too late + nightmare kind of killed the beginning of the day for us. Then when we DID get dressed up to go out, we found that the car's been towed away to clear the snow from the streets. Jon didn't check the car yesterday so it got towed off. No idea where. x.x;; He has to go to City Hall tomorrow to check it out... probably before Grandquest runs.

It wasn't snowing when we were actually OUT though. There was just some hard compacted snow all around and a bit of softer snowfall. Sucky. It was really cold, too ^^; And since we couldn't find the car we had to walk, so we just ended up going to the grocery store. Yay for a night out! :P

Wheeeee... won my skirts! That was quite easy! I've been so used to cutthroat bidding on items that getting these as easy as I did surprised me. Not that I mind there's not much demand for them, they're MINE now!

Before I go on I should mention a couple things. Thanks to Kraken for the email, and for your understanding. It helps a lot just to know you care and that you don't take my awful scheduling problems personally. ^_^ Also to Selina, I haven't forgotten about working on the Shattered Chalice forum, getting the saved entries onto a new installation and all. I should have some time to mess with it tomorrow or Thurs after B&B.

So, back to the rambling about my awesome awesome skirts. :D