1890s game

It's MOSTLY related to Soul Collectors, and my frustration trying to plan for it and then procrastinating horribly.

So I'm throwing in the towel. :P

Not because I dislike Soul Collectors as an idea -- I still love it. And I intend to run it again one day. However, I think I need players with a similar playstyle to me. Players who'll appreciate my descriptiveness, because I prefer writing paragraph(s) long descriptions, actions and interactions than trying to keep up with fast paced oneliners. I want my players to at least *try* to stunt regularly, if not all the time.

I didn't start this thing to have a chat RP. :x And honestly, agonizing over my lack of inspiration was KILLING me. I've been horribly depressed, unmotivated to go outside, eating irregularly, etc. I just... don't want to deal with that any more. Not for a GAME.

Hrm... getting on the sleepy side so let me just go through this quick. ^^ I played Panoply and 1890's game today. (Most of what I wrote in the last post was Saturday.) Both ran pretty short due to headaches, connection problems and such, but they still ran, and that's great.

(There's a bit later in the post about The World RP, too.)

I pulled an all-nighter (till 11 am) writing a huge document on the Prydaen race for the Order Talliska's in. Honestly, I don't even know if it's what the Speaker expected. o.O I just wrote what I thought was an appropriate document to describe the Prydaen race and customs in the light of the latest wave of hate/prejudice.

I did a crapload of research for it, too. I was already familiar with Prydaen customs, having played Talliska for years, but I wanted to make sure I got everything as right as I could make it. So I subjected myself to several hours of peering through the 37 pages of posts in the Prydaen race forums. o.O Well, a lot of it was interesting reading, and I did get some good stuff from the GM posts, so it was worth it. I'll post it here when I've got some sort of consent or approval from the Order, I guess.

Anyway, end result is that I'm exhausted (though oddly giddy) and I've got one, maybe 2 RPs to play tonight (definitely Panoply, maybe 1890's game since it was skipped last week), on top of prepping for Emberdays tomorrow. n.n Fortunately, I don't think the ED prep will take much time, I already have a good idea how it'll go. So I'm just going to try and get everything done and rest/sleep early.

I just don't want to ever. mess. with website tags again. x.x

It's much harder to mess with them AFTER the fact. I have this nasty perfectionist streak, which doesn't help things. I always want to FIX it better. I'll go through the old posts and go "I should've used that tag and that category" or "this has too many categories, must be something wrong with my organization system!" and so on.

I don't even think I'm satisfied with it now, but I don't think I will EVER really be satisfied, now that I think of it. Even before the big tag change, I didn't really like them. I do think it's *better* now than it was before. But there are things that need to be addressed still.

I'm just going to do them later. =_=

My sis is coming really soon now! And there's lots of stuff (namely RP) that I'm doing before then.

Sunday: Wardragon and Panoply! Winning day :D
Monday: Emberdays. 2-3 minis, so might be a lil' draining.
Tuesday: Ex2 one-shot during the night hours, with Riezsa and Kiran!
Wednesday: ED - Iesan's intro, hopefully a conclusion. :/
Thursday: ...hrm! Maybe L5R, but I kinda have a feeling it won't run.
Friday: Helping Jon finish cleaning and preparing for my sister's visit!
Saturday: Sis flies in! Yay!

I just finished playing 1890's game, too. It was a good session. It's been VERY slow in coming, but I'm starting to get a feel for Clarissa, my Sidchar. The future visions thing, I think I can really work with. And her academic sorcery schooling. Hopefully I'll actually get to use some of her socials some day. ^^

Anyway, is bed times nao. I have RPs and Kalli fic-readings when I wake!

Including:
- Wardragon 40K... awesome beyond words.
- Panoply of Faith, first Exalted session ever run by Eni! Woo Eni \o/ (Plus a lot of ramble about my Panoply chara, Tashna!)
- Yesterday's 1890's game, which ran short but was still fun!

Also some (very) brief mention of ED and Soul Collectors.

Here we go with the RP summaries:

'cause I really should go to bed even if my brain screams "WRITE MOAR!" But these are topics I want to write about when I'm up and about again.

- RP post. Probably going to do it at the end of today since I'll play both Wardragon and Panoply then. (On Sat. I got to play a bit of Selina's 1890's game.)

- My depression, lately... some nasty arguments triggered by extreme paranoia, which I wonder sometimes is more than just depression. Hrm.

Like the title says... I got Jon to buy me fig newtons, and I am eating them. <3 (random~!)

Anyway, I ran ED today, and it went fairly well. I shouldn't get so enamored at my NPCs, but I liked portraying Jackal for Milena. His methods may not be good for the Realm in the long run, but he certainly thinks they are. Well, he's just one of those stubborn-to-a-fault Sids, I guess!

Milena's scene needs to continue sooner or later, I never got to bring out Elyssa. ;.;

Lim and Valeriya got more Vermillion talk and I sure hope that I didn't reveal so much the rest of the game is pointless. I don't think so though, since even without those revelations there is still plenty that can happen in the Realm to give PCs something to do. Besides that, they have to actually figure what to do with that knowledge, if anything.

Well it's Christmas Eve now, and I'm going to be heading to my inlaws.

I've not been up to much lately except not getting enough sleep, being irritable and stressed about the littlest things (like, a couple days ago I was so fucking pissed off about not being able to S-rank PSU story missions for PA frags, and I kept trying and trying at it until I got it) and basically wanting to give up on life, or at the very least participating or socializing in it.

I was supposed to play Wardragon yesterday but I couldn't because I was so damn sleep deprived due to all the depression, stress and anxiety keeping me up all night. So I just exploded and said "fuck this" more or less and said I'd leave the game, since I couldn't post anything due to being too damn tired and distraught, and people would disregard my character's attempts at leadership and just do whatever they want, anyway.