Utena/Anthy hurt/comfort fic. I read one earlier today and got all "eeee~" about it.

I find it amusing that those two have to be one of my favorite couples in anime OF ALL TIME </kanye> but they're two girls. And I still consider myself straight!

Anyway, I never really thought their gender really mattered. In Revolutionary Girl Utena, that matters way less than the feelings between the characters. As I'm sure I've said before, I think that's what I like about it. Love that transcends gender. That concept has always fascinated me way more than loving, or being attracted to the male gender.

Lately I have been thinking again about my ideas to continue Reborn Again. How I wish there was enough energy and inspiration in my body to do that now! I still need to heal, mentally, though. Everyone's worried about me, because I'm always so worn out, to the point I can't even keep up with my games and I have to keep taking mini-breaks from Dragonrealms.

I'm listening to this album right now (by Red Hot Chili Peppers) and feeling nostalgic. It came out 10 years ago and used to be one of my favorite driving songs. I have very fond memories of driving down the Las Vegas Strip listening to that album with Michelle, Paul and Lisanne.

In fact I used to really enjoy driving a lot. Every time I did it was like a mini-vacation from life. But now I have chronic headaches and eyestrain and likely am not helping that by being at the computer for most of the day.

My car of 11 years (from 1996-2007 ish) was taken from me too due to being ruled by Canadian law to be unfit to drive. I've gotten $4k back for a savings fund, but it's still sad... that car was a big part of my late teens and young adulthood, and took me on that last, long journey from California to Quebec five years ago.

(Note to self: put more tags when not so horribly sleepy)

I've been busy lately. This is possibly the longest gap I've ever had between posts. :( Which is rather sad really. But I guess a lot of what I would have to say, I can't write publicly for whatever reason. Or I feel like it's just too repetitive to bother with.

I also get really worn out just from writing on rpol. I used to spend up to 2 hours on single posts on my journal... now all my writing energy goes to my games.

I'm seriously burning out on the Academy event currently going on though. Just writing, and writing, and writing all those NPCs, unsure anyone even gives half a crud about what I'm writing, about the characters involved, or whether I'm putting in too much useless text, etc. I feel like I'm writing about a Festival that's happening in the First Age, that the PCs just happen to be at and interact with tangentially.

I don't even know if it's any good. Mostly because no one (besides my husband) really tells me.

Looks like I won't be going to visit inlaws this week. It may be a couple weeks from now. Jon and I may take a day off toward the end of the week instead, maybe go and stay at a hotel for a night. :) We do that sometimes just to get away from distractions and be together.

Reasons for postponing the visit are many. Mood, bad timing, etc. One of the more important issues is that I'm waiting for my check card to come in and don't want to be away from the apartment when it comes.

Also, I'm trying to finalize my early withdrawal from Concordia. I'm not totally happy about it, as I've said before, but on the other hand knowing I'm NOT going has improved my mood somewhat. Before, when I was in this constant "I'm not sure if I'm going or not!!!" situation, the lack of certainty negatively affected my mood a LOT. Well, now I just won't reapply until I have all the other documents ready. :/ Which with lawyer help, I can only hope will be next year.

I was told just last night that Wardragon is dead - the game I played Archana in. I'm not surprised at all, but it is still saddening. I think of all the games I played on OpenRPG I had some of the best times with WD40K. However, I understand the reasons for it ending.

Archana will live on in some way, so it's not too bad. I intend to keep writing about her, possibly even find other game(s?) to play her in if that is possible. As mentioned before, one of the Anthegenia novels actually involves a story with her as the main character.