And just when my mood was looking up. :/
Right now my finger hurts for typing so I might not be able to do much online for at least a couple days. I was getting pissed off about something and hit my nail so hard it bent backward and now it hurts when I press the fingertip on stuff.
Also I got the thought of quitting Outcastes because I am sick of that one player still trying to work out more freaking advantages for himself when I'm trying to set up this scenario to teach him a lesson. He pissed off a storm mother in a seafaring game, and the only way I could work it out believably without ruining things for everyone else was to force the guy into a duel with her. Then he starts asking for even more ways to cheat around the rules she put down for the duel. :/ I allowed the first one but the others are a no-go!
Even more frustratingly, I can't believe that people would actually think the scenario is funny or even a good idea to do. That sort of behavior is basically spitting on what the Cobalt Alliance represents. I would have just kicked the offender out, but I'm not sure anyone else understands WHY that action caused me to get so concerned. So now I just want to kill the entire game so people understand how seriously irritating it is to have to deal with some sort of twink player who tries to weasel out of trouble while other players either egg him on or say nothing.
Fine, it's petty, it's not well thought out, but I got so flipping pissed after realizing that people don't even appreciate what I create or want to work within the parameters of my vision. I'm a perfectionist when it comes to what I create. That and I had an argument happen at the same time which also led to a lot of frustration, not to mention the possibility of a key player leaving my games.
All that drama pretty much just made me snap. I'm giving myself a day or two to cool down about it until I can figure out a final decision. I do think I'll prolly be able to keep my other games (Academy and Five Coils) though, unless more drama happens between now and then.
Well now I'm playing some Sims 2 (renovating houses!! work that bulldozer!) I'm feeling a bit better now but I'm still thinking I ought to take a gaming break. I've mostly been posting in Academy of Celestial Learning because for some reason I actually enjoy it MORE after someone said Exalted without combat sucks. :D Well sometimes I just want to play in the Exalted WORLD, without combat all over the place!
Next on to-do list is to actually do some creative work on my solo game with Selina. Cause like yeeeeah. We're playing in the Realm and her chara is going to be all sneaksy Changing Moon, so this is good. I LOVE RPing spy/subterfuge/assassination type stuff. Realm spy stuff is even more awesome, and it's perfect to play this sort of role in a game with only one player.
I always wanted to do something with the Realm underworld, in fact. I wonder if we can work something like that. House Cynis in my games always has some shady business going on beneath their hedonistic surface. I guess Cynis Elyssa from Emberdays really symbolized what I like to think the House does besides just sell slaves and hold orgies. A house that specializes in making business out of pleasure (and pleasure out of business) is definitely one that'd have a market in secrets, contraband (Bright Morning anyone?) or even wetworks... after all, seductive killer may be a cliche, but it works on the right kind of people.
Maybe I will get to put the Slug into the game (I rather like using him) or Sesus Rafara. Hmm, lots to think about!
