Out tomorrow :o More RPoL ramble!

Hrmmm... tomorrow I may be going out for the whole day! gasp! (well, today, now). Nothing big, just going to walk around and stuff. Maybe do a lil' shopping. And go out for dinner. It snowed yesterday though, so I'm expecting it to be cold!

I feel a little apprehensive leaving my RPoL games for too long, mostly because I still have that leftover, paranoic worry that people will forget about them if I don't post. Usually, though, even if I'm gone a day I can still post before bed. o.o

Right now I have three games, too. Three RPoL games is not *that* much in comparison to three real time games. But it can be a lot of work.

I was able to get Grey to join Five Coils, which makes me all happy!!! I am kinda nervous whether he will like it -- he's coming back to forum gaming after years away from it. But we'll see. I ended up accepting more players than I thought so I have people to fall back on if someone ends up not liking it or dropping.

It just boggles me that I even have the opportunity to do all this. After all the trouble I've gone through with RPing and STing before, anxiety issues and being ill-suited for games and so on, I am finally carving a (small) niche for myself. I really, REALLY like that. I don't know if it'll always be like this, but the fact that it's happened at all lets me know it's possible. There really is a place for my creativity in the world, somewhere.

I think I do have a talent for writing. What I tend to lack is confidence (which forums really let me build 'cause I have ample time to think up posts) and motivation (having to write for other people to enjoy actually helps that). One day I hope to put all this creativity into published writing, but who knows when that will happen? I always feel like I am at my best when I am giving to a community, however small.

In the meantime, though, I get to play with a lot of ideas I was afraid to do in real time games. Five Coils for example is my chance to introduce Shattered Age to a community (since, if the group DOES manage to get up to the top floor, the surface world is within the Shattered Age setting). Outcastes on the Open Sea let me bring back two characters Jon and I really loved playing (Lasuri and Jadira), and explore the idea of Dragon-blooded banding together and getting things done to clean up and unite the West. It's like "here's a story of the West with cooperating Dragon-blooded teams in place of the Solar Circle".

Then there's my new game, Realm Reformation, which is a concept that I let other players come up with for me to run. They just so happened to want to choose a Realm centric game, which fits with my tastes (as I described before). I'm wanting to keep the group in that game small and close-knit and run it relatively slow with long descriptive passages. I'm fairly confident in the players I have so far, they all look dedicated and interested in the concept, so we'll just have to see how far I can take it. :O

(Oh yeah... I had someone drop out of Reformation at the end, but I ended up having Jon replace him. My husband just plays Sidereals that well. :D And the others who tried making one just couldn't figure out what to do with a Sid! Also, I'm getting to start NPCing as Nagezzer, which is unusual, but awesome.)

Five Coils, on the other hand, is high action and pushing towards a concrete and immediate goal, and Outcastes is kinda in the middle. Sometimes it's fast paced, sometimes it's more planning and interacting. Generally I am letting the players decide the direction of the game, but with some guidance on my part so things don't flounder.

These games are pretty much all I'm up to if I'm at the comp and not responding. I'm thinking that once I get Outcastes and Five Coils back up to par, with the new players integrated in to the game and all, I should be able to relax a bit more. I hope. I don't want this to be an incurable obsession, just a fun diversion. Normally, I'd only be posting once a day in every thread, anyway!

Time to get some rest, again. Next time I may post about Ryshassa. I meant to a day or two ago but lost my train of thought!

(Oh oh and I am getting emails from Kalli again. She is all right!! Hiiiiii if you're reading this at the library, Kalli. Good luck, I know you'll do FINE in college! *smooch*)