I seem to really like being a RPoL GM. :P

Yeah. I think I really enjoy it. o.o It's just involved enough to keep me happy, and doesn't keep me so busy I can't walk away from it when I need to. But doesn't trigger my anxiety much at all. It has, once or twice, but I have sufficient time to deal with it as necessary.

That said, I have this freaking urge to start Lion-Bull War already. I dunno. I just... really need forum games right now. And these games really do something to keep me focused and not utterly crushingly depressed for some reason. I REALLY would like anyone interested in playing LBW to inform me right away though, because I always prefer to take people I know over people I don't. :(

I'm also worried I may end up too obsessed with RP to even pay attention to anything else in my life, which is NOT good. But... "anything else in my life" is pretty much utter shit right now, and I lose a little bit more of my sanity every time I even think about it.

So I build stories. I give people a fun diversion. That's all I can do really...

Now, about Lion-Bull War: It will have to use Ex2 Mass Combat system, and I'm not sure how many people really like using it. Honestly, though, I don't think it's terrible, having looked over it. Am I missing something here? Maybe someone who knows Ex better than me could explain why it sucks. :P

It probably needs some more study on my part, though. But the thing that appeals to me most about it is that Ex2 already stats all the basic units I could possibly think of using, and then some. I could just edit stats to make them more powerful or weaker as I wish. One thing I think I WOULD do though is actually come up with a way to blend mass combat with individual combat, since I mean... Exalted could potentially count as a unit all by themselves. So could massive enemies. I'd want combat to be fluid like that in Lion-Bull War.

Also, the idea of running a game of PC Abyssals smashing Solars led by the Bull of the North is just too damned cool. I mean. It just *is*. Probably because I hate Yurgen Kaneko with a passion, and I also really have this distinct desire to smash Solars who get all power hungry and think they can take over / shape the world to their liking / play god with lesser beings. Yeah, just 'cause you have the power to do it doesn't mean you *should* -- and that you're always *right*. My games, ANY game I run, always tends towards punishing people in the long run who run away with their hubris (Solar or otherwise) too far.

What I find amusing though is that I don't particularly feel like punishing Abyssals (in my games that involve them) for wanting to destroy the world. :P I suppose that says something about my current state of mind. I mean, it sucks anyway. Better to destroy it than toy around with it. :P It's almost a kind of mercy, if you're pushed far enough to think there's no hope left for the world.

Huntress of the Seven Plagues, in fact, represents the extreme of my thoughts in that: she believes humans will always be motivated to conflict with one another and cause each other pain and strife. So all it needs is one final war to just destroy everyone and dull all the feelings that make people want to war. Undeath or oblivion. :P The personality I chose for her, incidentally, is probably close to what I would portray Ryshassa as if she'd really gone the deep end and went truly evil. The difference is probably their methods (Ryshy would have more powers that could destroy or control a wide range of people :P)

Anyway hrm... LBW, I think, will not be a standard chargen game either. Because I kinda hate standard chargen. :P I try not to go too high with the points, though, I've found most people outside my old RP group don't really know how to use them without going totally *crazy* with them. So I may go more with a x charms, y bp thing. (Nothing too high. x=13, y=22? max Ess 3? also, I'd automatically give War 3 and Command 1 on top of that. So that'd make everyone at least a competent officer of a skirmish unit; BPs could add more.) They'd also get the number of backgrounds for loyal Abyssals which I think is 12. Or something like that.

Blah, so tempted to start it. But I won't. I should at least try to get my current game going somewhere first shouldn't I? :P I'm kinda nervous I won't be able to write nautical combat well for Outcastes, but... I'm going to just have to give it my best shot, like I often say. I want my game to run fairly quick so I'm posting twice a day more or less. Once when I wake and once at night.

*twiddles thumbs* Maybe I'll just play more of From the Abyss, which made me sad a bit 'cause there aren't any female sprites to play! Boo! :( But I'll still stick with it. Tomorrow when I wake I actually want to get some cleaning and stuff done around the apartment, maybe even look up some things online about my health insurance situation... here's hoping I actually DO it.

P.S. I ended up dropping Hrifa :( I wanted to start slimming down on some games I play... the game I made her for was slow and I just couldn't get inspired to write. Dunno why really, guess my commanding-ness is as an all-time low.