(Lack of) packing progress, etc.

Erm... well...

Sorry I've been really scarce online, just not much in the mood to be about what with the upcoming move and my mood lately. Honestly, I'm not even sure we'll get everything done that needs doing before Friday. Still a lot left unpacked and I hardly have any motivation to help. *sigh* Jon kept telling me I didn't have to help, and now we only have two days left with too many things still left unpacked. (I've actually been embellishing the truth with some people about just how much we have done, heh.)

I don't even know how we're bringing some of our stuff to Montreal ourselves, when I don't even have my car back or know whether it runs properly!

So anyway, I'm anticipating the move itself being a huge freaking headache, since the packing and pre-moving stuff is already making me stressed and exhausted. And that just plain makes me unhappy and unwilling to deal with people, for the most part. I've had to hang around AIM and DR at least a couple hours a day due to Talliska getting some new Order duties in Dragonrealms, but other than that I've just been hiding away. I just don't trust myself not to be easily irritated or upset at people who don't deserve it, and I've already done that enough lately.

Trust me, this is just not a time people ought to be around me. It takes energy for me to fake feeling "fine" and I need all the energy I need for the days ahead. :/

There's also part of me that feels inclined to be on IRC less, I admit. There's some things IRC reminds me of, at times, and I just... don't want to deal. For example, all the guilt, upset and disappointment I've had over Emberdays lately. But that's only the tip of the iceberg. I guess part of me is just wanting to give up on my old RP grounds entirely... just... move on. :/ Even Wardragon, which I COMPLETELY love, is running so slow it's practically nonexistent.

I also can't run any of my newer RP ideas without Kalli anyway. ;.; Which sucks. So that's led me to being more and more involved in DR, and less so everywhere else.

Will that change? Possibly. I have to settle down into my new apartment, deal with things like starting my college application at Concordia, getting a local bank account (including loan and credit card), all this intimidating scary stuff... until I can see where I stand with my online activities and interaction. So there may (MAY!) end up being a permanent shift in what I spend my free time doing, but we'll see.