Wednesday plans, husband embarrassment :D

Okay, Wednesday is officially my "I am not playing any RP" day this week. Nothing. I've already dropped one game and I have another one in mind to do the same with soon. I'm not going to deal with it till Thurs though.

Just trying to clean up my free time a bit. Even though it makes me look like a total flake, or a bad RPer, or whatever, it's better I admit early that I want out than to keep on with it for weeks and weeks. Sometimes I just go through these periods where I'm bored, or lonely, or whatever, and end up joining every RP I find, then realize "hey wait. I didn't keep my limits in mind." Got to curb my impulsiveness. :/

The only other thing I want to post at the moment is this: Jon's Wardragon 40k music! He composed a song playing live synths, basically a theme song for the game and for the Unity, the flagship of the Unified Forces of Creation.

I'm really proud of it, and of my husband. :D

Jon wants to go into the field of sound engineering, which I think suits him well. First of all, it takes having a good ear, and second, it takes being able to adapt well to different situations (different instruments, studios, equipment, acoustics...) to produce the desired sound. Jon is good at both of those things, and quite honestly, the UFC Unity song is just a HINT of what I think he's truly capable of.

First of all, he composed the whole thing on a software keyboard, pressing keys one by one with a mouse. He handpicked all the synths from hundreds of sounds he downloaded. He programmed each instrument with what their physical placement in an orchestra would be. And as I said before, he played each part live -- the ONLY part that was pre-programmed and looped was the drum beat. I can say that the drum sound in particular went through a LOT of revisions as he tried to make it sound less and less metallic and synthy, and more round and organic.

He went through a lot of different programs to figure out the right combination to record and mix all the different synth tracks together. I don't even get what half of them DO! ^^; There was a point where he had trouble with his software and it halted his progress with the song for several weeks, but he kept trying things and kept working at it and he figured it out. On his own, no formal training, nothing but good ol' Google and possibly forums on the topic.

Considering all this, I really think that the music he came out with is spectacular. It isn't all that complex in melody, but as I said, that's because he had to key in every note by hand one by one! On the other hand, the layers of sound (the brass and strings arrangements in particular) are astounding and sound almost real. Jon was very, VERY picky about getting that orchestra sound down, or as close to it as he could get.

I'm rambling, but I really am proud. He learned a lot from the experience that he can use in future sound endeavors, and he produced something Grey and other Wardragon players really like. So I'm just indulging my proud wife feelings and saying "my husband is awesome!" 'Cause Jon did this thing his way, with NO real equipment, and it came out really, really great.

Eee... I'm happy. ^^ Sound engineering is going to BE his profession, so if he's got a knack for it, it only benefits us. I want to be part of his musical endeavors in some way. I'll make websites, I'll contribute my voice and keyboarding skills. Anthegenia Records is our concept, together (his artist name, of course, is Lonan). I know he wants to compose specifically for me, and has even said he already has a lot of ideas in mind for what sort of music will suit my voice.

It's just "wow" to have someone create something for you like that. Creating a gift is just so much more personal than just buying it. It's kinda like how Jon and I RP together... when it's us together, it's so much more personal. There's so much unspoken trust between us. I KNOW how his characters will react in pretty much any situation. I KNOW they'd be loyal to mine if I asked for that loyalty, and I like that security. Knowing that there's always one person in the world, real or imagined, I can trust with my creations -- and with my life.

S'not that I don't want surprises in RP. I play with a variety of different people. Admittedly, I'm just about to cut a handful of those people out by leaving some of the games I'm leaving, but I've still played with plenty. That's more than enough uncertainty, in my book! That's a totally different kind of fun than the security and reliability I have in RPing with Jon, and I enjoy it just as much.

I'm really starting to get comfortable with that idea that Jon and I come in a pair. If I choose to enter a game with him (and that's not always true; I play some games he's not in), accepting me but not my husband just doesn't work. And I shouldn't have to feel ashamed for wanting to play longterm relationships with his characters, or eschew explicit sexual situations with other PCs because I'd rather only play / experience those with him.

That's just how I am. I'm a loyal woman and I am loyal to him. :O And right now I am proud!wife, and going to eat some Jon cooking! Woo!