Prepared for once. o.o Mostly.

I'm running Emberdays in ...several hours, and I actually have stuff written down. o.O I don't plan THAT far ahead, but I try to at least get the big descriptive bits written ahead of time when I'm not totally feeling like crap.

Well, I am still rather hermit-y at the moment. But, I could at least think up a few descriptive passages. We'll see how the actual game goes, I guess! :P But I don't really want to run that long... maybe 5 hours-ish?

I'm not actually sure why I'm trying to run despite my mood, except that I'm really paranoid about getting play time for ED nowadays. I think I'll really have to take a break after this one, though. Maybe a week-ish, then I'll try and fit a session and maybe a mini in before taking a break for the holidays.

Wow, but I am totally a loser. I wish I didn't just... bomb in terms of inspiration for characters, after I so wanted to play in people's games. Stupid me, huh. It's not like I stopped wanting to play 'em, either just... so not feeling like my character making is any good. Why? Beats me, really. I think I started getting discouraged about my Abby (who does have a name btw... Countess Rosalia Branwen of Luftawara. And no, it's not a title name, because she isn't actually an Abby yet. I figure I'll decide on one when it happens. :P) when I found out about all the ideas Nekira and Col were coming up with and I was like "wtf...? I didn't think of anything HALF as complex."

That discouraged me, then. I dunno about now. I'm rather unconfident that Nekira will still want to play anything with me, much less talk to me, so I'm just going to shrug and see what happens. I mean, I'll work at my own pace because that's what I'm best at doing. And if I have a chara and she still wants me to play by then... by all means I'll play! But I'll be damned if I get this done before holidays. :/ Screw this season, and my depression and all that.

Also, my period... yep, that's coming around too! =_= Probably doesn't help with all the rest getting me down right now. Booooo, hormones.

And I don't like that I might be inconveniencing someone with my moods. *sigh* That thought keeps running through my mind that that's what I'm doing. And it probably isn't even half as bad (concerning Nekira's game) as I'm imagining, but I just feel so horrible. Ah well... I'm just so used to expecting the worst. :P

Oh, I wanted to write a bit about PSU before I napped. I'll go and put it in a seperate post.