As written in the Academy OOC on RPoL 'cause I am THAT lazy:

I spent my quiet time with husband watching Twilight Zone episodes and had an awesome steak dinner and apple cider in cheesy looking skull goblets. Before that we went and walked around downtown where it was windy, which was rather unfortunate given that I had a witch hat on and hubby had an ostentatious stovepipe hat. Though a black dude witch-cackled at me at some point, and I even inadvertently ended up trick-or-treating (cause we had to get stuff at the grocery store and they had a candy bowl there. I mean, why not?) So it was pretty thematic! :P

For my standards it was pretty fun though. (I'm such a loner.) Sometime during the night I even got some inspiration for a new game idea I'm slowly building up. It's not Exalted and it's pretty niche, so I don't expect to get people here interested in it... though, I do have a desire to run a new Ex game should one of my other active ones die off.

We've gained an hour and I have to get used to it getting dark around 4:30 pm. o.O

I left a record number of rpol games lately. Just... a lot of really slow games, and games I wasn't all that interested in after the fact.

Incidentally I'm only in ONE FFRPG game now. And I had joined a HUGE amount of them just a month or so ago! I'm sad about losing the chance to play Irina, who was one of my faves. Just, the game didn't have the right pace and level of description for me.

Right now I'm trying to work my way into a game where I'm playing a No Moon, Tlatcha. She's a lynx totem, a sorceress, and has a theme concerning dreams with significant, even prophetic meaning. She's a Haslanti Dreamseer and gets called southward by a dream quest, thereafter getting involved in the game plot. Also one of my youngest chars, probably around 17-18 years old.

The GM is taking a lot of time writing out setting detail while working with the backgrounds and motivations of the PCs. I like that he's detail oriented, but I hope he'll actually have the drive to keep up the game itself once it starts. That's usually the difficult part. I see plenty more rpol games die than live.

I don't celebrate Easter. But Easter Sunday was a pretty dismal day.

Sometimes I have to think about the fact that I may be too selfish and screwed up in the head to have long term relationships with people. I mean, whether they're friendships or more. But especially more, because the closer a person gets to me, the more likely I am to be cruel. That fact makes me a bit nervous because I am currently unable to take care of myself very well. Maybe I will be a street person one day, but until someone forces the issue I will continue to be a drain to people's patience and resources.

Some people say that the more you love someone the more you can hurt them. I find that this is true for me at least in terms of my marriage. I love Jon very deeply but when I fight him, I fight to win, and I actually feel satisfaction in doing so.

Yay for 2009! Oh wait, this is the year I turn 30... *weeps quietly in a corner*

Anyway, sis should be back home by now (I'll have to check on her one more time, but she had a meeting to go to almost as soon as she got off the plane.) So I have the apartment to myself. I need days just to recover from how exhausting it was to have a guest for 10 days.

The more I am away from the Bay Area, the more I realize how much leaving has changed my lifestyle. I just don't think living there will ever be 'home' again. Part of me is sad because I feel that my choices in life will ultimately distance me from my blood-related family entirely.

...early. whatever. I should be sleeping but I'm not. x.x

ANYWAY, oh! we have Soul Calibur 4 for PS3 and I'm having fun with it. I've not played Soul Calibur since the first one, or was it the second? Anyway, I am playing Tira now and she is my favorite. :D Razor hula hoop anyone? also, her soul edge weapon looks like Ouroboros. *awesome!*

Then Jon and I went into character creation and made Archana and Seventeen. XD (Archa is using Mitsurugi style right now because her current weapon in Wardragon is a reaver daiklave with quick draw iaijutsu type style. 17 is using Cervantes style, since he's a two blade fighter and also happens to have a pistol. Except 17's is not a gunblade.)

We also went out and bought a *board game*, haha. It's an adventure dungeon crawler type thing. I forgot what it's called... possibly because I am so sleep deprived right now it's SICK.

Happy Christmas Eve though. :D more holiday posty later!