I've been working with hostforweb to try and speed up my site. There were some memory errors lately, which I think have been fixed. I'm not sure about whether the speed is better though.

What I really want is a Xen VPS... Unfortunately I don't think hostforweb has those. But I'm also kind of iffy about moving my entire site without testing the server first. I know, I got slicehost for that. But I'm so lazy with it that I think I'll have to cancel and wait until I have more time to think about webstuff. Besides the fact that I'm not really confident moving my site to slicehost, as it feels more appropriate as a testing environment.

Roleplay and writing have been my main time foci lately, beyond worrying about things like reapplying for college (which I may wait till January to do now, as I've been told no one looks at the files anyway until after holidays), and whether I really will get my passport on Nov 25 (it would not surprise me if I'm getting jerked around again, geez). Oh and ordering new wedding bands and planning our little vacation for our 5th annversary (we'll be gone from Dec 17th-21st).

We also made a few purchases lately that have been entertaining and fun.

Whoa birthdays. Eni's was yesterday but I was out all day. And today's is Selina's and Lumi's. I'm sending birthday wishes all over the place.

Still feel rather sad I'm not sending gifts because I like being generous, but right now being generous may not be a good idea. Still no financial aid yet and Jon is just starting a new job at the end of this month.

On the other hand I DID spend *some* money as I had some left over... namely, to get Dark Spire. FINALLY. XD And Jon bought some music CDs which I will talk about later.

Dark Spire is just... totally awesome so far. Mmmmm challenging dungeon crawlers. The premise is very simple (go to the top of the tower, kill the bad sorcerer, get back the treasure--it's very Nethack-ish actually), and the gameplay seems deceptively simple as well. But this game totally does NOT handhold you through much at all. Even the tutorial had this attitude of "just DO IT already, stop asking questions!" which amused me to no end.

I'm totally beat though so I don't know I'll really be around much till tomorrow. I have Wardragon then anyways so I'll be around pretty much all day Sat. playing that. Also updating all my RPoL posts, and writing info for Dynastic Moon. I'm a busy writin' lady.

Jon and I really had a great time, two of our best days together in a while. :D We stayed at a nearby hotel, as I mentioned, a great and high rated one. Not like, super expensive though. Just enough for what funds we had. We even got a suite upgrade for a small cost, so we spent a lot of time just lounging and relaxing in the room. We watched a movie there (Taken with Liam Neeson, which I really enjoyed actually, for reasons I may explain later) and lots of Star Trek and Stargate. Lol, we're dorks.

Something I said to a friend just now: "I've accepted that I'll be dealing with my issues for the rest of my life. Just that I will eventually learn to get more control over them. I think I'm much too old to completely unlearn the stuff I've grown up with. I see it akin to learning a new language late in life. Being depressed/insecure/paranoid/etc. is like my native psyche, and I have to learn how to NOT be that way and practice it daily. But there's not going to be a point where I stop ever having to be aware of my issues because they're completely gone."

I gotta get to bed soon, so I can wake up for my birthday stuff... I'm getting my hair cut (finally argh) and going to relax at a hotel with Jon for the night as mentioned earlier.

I'll be gone on my birthday and most of the day after (23rd and part of 24th). Reason is cause I'm going to spend some time away with Jon, we've got a hotel reservation and everything.

I kinda need to get away from the computer, I think. I have a lot of pent up rage lately and writing is really tiring me (yet I am still up here typing. I think it's because my masochistic streak keeps making me want to deprive myself of sleep on purpose.)

The rage part has something to do with my recent feelings of rejection, too. I do not handle that well, it actually makes me want to just plain cut off and never communicate with whomever I feel rejected me. :P

Oh, I think I said I'd mention these... here are the characters I made lately.