Anniversary

I wasn't really able to play FFXI at all these past couple days. x.x Just had too much to do the day before yesterday, and then we lost our connection for several hours due to another lameass contractor messing up our cable connection.

I kinda feel bad for Rin since I don't have nearly as much time to put into playing (with all the other activities I do as well, free time or not). FFXI is harder to play solo and I wanted to try to keep up together as a group. Just don't know if I can manage it... especially in the coming weeks with sis over and all that.

Oh, I wanted to mention that the anniversary celebration was actually very nice and relaxing. Thanks to all who gave well wishes! Unfortunately, I'm in a bit of a sour mood lately, and that really put a damper on the good feelings I got from relaxing with husband.

We're going to be away till tomorrow evening-ish.

Going to stay at a hotel for 4th anniversary. (I'm old! o.O) And eat out and all that.

Also, I've been losing weight, I've found. I'm gradually approaching 180. :P But I really need to get back into exercising. In the spring I may lose a great deal if I start that up again. I'm surprised I've still been losing, even if it's only a half a pound a week.

RIN: I couldn't find you at all last night n.n and I kept dying, hehe. So I went and soloed to 12. I probably should try to do quests :P *bad about that* but we should party on Thurs if you want ^^;

Friday is PSU night though, and so is Sat.

See you~! (P.S. Selina, don't worry... I'm not mad at you.)

Um yeah, they're hard. ;.; I thought the level 80 ones in Tunnel Recapture S were hard. It's mostly 'cause you really need to melee those Bil de Vears, and guntechers have two!! melee weapons. They're not very great ones either.

I probably could use some ice armor, too. Maybe I'll get that. Damn. I had Laia and my grand spankin' new 100 Striking PM with me (I chose 412 again... she has a SUV weapon and also swords and sabers) and they were all getting one hit killed. Uh oh! O.o Now that I think of it, if they're not immune to shock that would help a lot too.

[Edit: I got a 28% ice Sori-senba armor and used my ice Ebrozike and I did a LOT better in Ice Caves S. At least I know now it isn't 'cause I suck at PSU, heh!]

Oh yeah, we didn't end up getting Macgyver cause the 5th season wasn't at the store. Booooo. And I have a freaking headache, now. I guess I shouldn't have had the wine after all. I got all anxious in the restaurant (don't feel like explaining now) so that kinda put a damper on the celebrating. Oh well!

Gonna go out for dinner with husband ^^ Since we didn't get to celebrate our anniversary yet. We're going to a steakhouse I think, 'cause I wanted red meat and red wine. Wooo, carnivorous boozing!

Yesterday, I ran a couple of ED scenes (as I'd planned before remembering "oh yeah, it's my anniversary!") It went all right, though as usual I couldn't get things done within the time frame I hoped for. :/ I dunno if I'll get to run ED again until next year, either, except for finishing a scene with Kraken on Thurs. I may need the time anyway, the next part of Jon and Selina's is a battle, in a locked vault of records, with a pyro trying to burn them down. I may even make smoke inhalation an issue, but I'll have to think about it. Heh.

I know a lot of people who are not "believers" in marriage. I'm the only one among my online friends who is married, for example, and I have to weather some very cynical comments at times. I get the feeling sometimes that people look to my marriage to see how long it'll take before it goes sour and we divorce or separate messily, because that's how relationships end up if you tie the knot too tight.

I'm sure the odds are against me. Even if married couples stay together, they eventually get bored of each other, end up cheating or desiring a sexually open relationship, start to notice more annoyances in each other's personalities than the traits that attracted each other in the first place. And so on. They end up enduring the marriage out of convenience, obligation (especially if kids are involved), religious belief or pressure from others. Or maybe that's why they got married in the first place -- because it's what they're "supposed" to do.

I remembered belatedly (this is quite embarrassing -- forgetting it, I mean) that it's my anniversary tomorrow. 3 years of marriage, huh. Weird. I still want to run ED, though... since forgetting is totally my fault and Jon and I can still celebrate on Tues.

I feel even more hermit-y than before right now. I feel like I'm pushing myself to be around, even though no one's asking me to do that. My temper is just unpredictable lately. x.x I've gotten really annoyed / angry at people a couple of times and I apologized each time, but I don't like that I get this way with people when I'm in this mood. People will misunderstand and take it personally, but really, I'm just... not happy right now.

Ugh... why won't it just go away. *sigh* I really need a longer break than I'm giving myself. But between obligations and anxiety and inability to explain what's WRONG with me, I just plain *can't*.

Just one more day at least... I want ED to run. :x Then, I don't know.

I suppose with our wedding anniversary (December 17), the anniversary of our relationship takes a bit less precedence, enough that I nearly forgot to mention it! But I did, and I will.

March 9, 2003 was when Jon and I first became a couple. For those of you who might not know the story (did I write it last year? I don't remember), he admitted his feelings for me a couple months before that. Maybe more like a month and a half. This was after the both of us broke off (unrelatedly, but around the same time period) our previous relationships. I was quite taken by surprise ^^; it came during a time I was halfway interested in another guy, though that experience turned out being terrible for me.

[Heed the tags! Sexual topics. Also, mention of yaoi. How yaoi is involved in a post about our anniversary day is something I'll let you find out... if you want. :P]

The day, all things considered, was primarily a good one. So I'm not complaining~ For dinner, we went to a Japanese restaurant, Ginko. They primarily specialize in grilled food, but we were in a sushi mood and ordered lots of it. And it was all really, really good! The restaurant impressed us greatly. The decor, food presentation, size of servings and taste (mmm!), service, even the music playing in our room, which was ....some sort of "new age" type music but it was very good, set a calming almost intimate ambiance.

Jon and I are gonna go out tomorrow for our anniversary. Our 2nd anniversary! Sounds so young. ^^; Still, it's double more than the last year! :O

Anyway, that means we'll be gone pretty much the whole day. Back on Monday though, for Emberdays and other misc scenes I will no doubt play as well... this coming week is gonna be solid with gamage, probably! But after that... vacation. We'll be bringing the PS2 so we won't get bored out in the country (well, it's sure country to me!) and probably mess with the new connection and broadband that Jon's parents have. Which means maybe! there will be brief online appearances from at least one of us. And maybe longer ones after dinner, but there's only one compy! And I wanna spend time running around in the snow and with the family too.

Okay, my eyes are really killing me again, so I'll try to make this short (ha! me write something short? :O)

We were supposed to go out today, but the sleeping too late + nightmare kind of killed the beginning of the day for us. Then when we DID get dressed up to go out, we found that the car's been towed away to clear the snow from the streets. Jon didn't check the car yesterday so it got towed off. No idea where. x.x;; He has to go to City Hall tomorrow to check it out... probably before Grandquest runs.

It wasn't snowing when we were actually OUT though. There was just some hard compacted snow all around and a bit of softer snowfall. Sucky. It was really cold, too ^^; And since we couldn't find the car we had to walk, so we just ended up going to the grocery store. Yay for a night out! :P