Well I'm back, and I have a few things to say. (Note: I wrote most of this while depressed, and we all know how pessimistic I am when that happens.)

First of all: Linode! I have my eye on this. It's cloud hosting like Slicehost, but apparently even better price-wise. Even Drupal users are giving it praises. Looks so nice... and I am getting concerned with the lagging on HostForWeb. It's just getting incredibly bad and I'm tired of month after month being told to post my traceroute as if this is going to solve anything. :(

Lately I've been told there are load balancing issues, and they're going to fix it... but I've heard that one before too.

I'm just worried because I'm not particularly motivated lately. If I move my site, it may take me a while to set up. And that's fine for me, but not fine for other people I'm hosting. :/ I'll be doing this from scratch, so I have to install everything successfully, and I'm totally unsure I can do this well within a reasonable timeframe. After what happened with Slicehost (me just lagging on actually DOING anything with it) I'm worried it will be a waste of money, particularly since I am planning to order the $40/mo version and thus will be paying $80 a month until I migrate everything.

As for my recent vacation...

I won't make a habit of posting about this, I'm just in this facebook friend adding mood. n.n Send me an email if interested in me adding you to my friends list in Facebook. I'm still iffy about publicizing my RL name in relation to this site, so I am not putting the name of my account here. (Apologies to those of you with this on LJ RSS as it will be repetitive.)

On other news, apparently Drupal is now version 6.15. I SWEAR this always happens right after I update version. Argh! I'll probably procrastinate again and the same thing will happen with 6.16, too. *weeps* It never fails.

And now we are going to get groceries like we were supposed to yesterday. Gah, yesterday there was bank issues and we starved for like 24 hours. I know, not as bad as some people have it but man did it make me unproductive! Dark Siren needs food for writingz. :( But now we have lots of money and we're going to get some holiday treats and something nice for our private Christmas dinner (just the two of us. Yay!)

It's also gettin' really cold now! Hello winter! *brrrrr* Time to step out (I swear, like the first time in a week. :/ I know, I'm bad!)

I never did finish my Christmas cards and presents. So again postponed to sending them on MONDAY. I hate myself for that, but I had a really poor day trying to write the cards, having my ink run out, losing my temper and tearing one of my good cards up... o.O It was just not a day for finishing my cards. I'm pretty much overworked, and the sad thing is I don't even have a real job. I'm just a RPoL GM.

Why don't I have a job? Because responsibility makes me anxious. See, with GMing I can at least fool myself into thinking it's 'fake' responsibility because there's no money involved and people just play for fun. If I were to try doing the same amount of work but for money, I would freak out and completely freeze up. I'd be unable to produce anything.

It's similar with my webpage stuff. I have maintained my website and server for 10 years. I haven't been the best at it especially lately (what with rpol making me lazy with everything else), but I've done it for no pay, I've kept things afloat, I troubleshoot stuff for my users, or make them new accounts, etc. I do this almost without thinking about it. Sometimes it's hard but I get things done.

What might have been an otherwise nice break was ruined by my new check card (which I received only a few days ago) having some sort of glitch and nearly keeping me from being able to pay for last night's dinner.

It made me very upset and insecure. I wish I had another source of money. :(

Supposedly it should be fixed by tomorrow but I'm very angry about it still. First the bank sends me a card with a mistaken expiration date. Then there's some sort of Visa "network glitch" the first time I actually use the card. Now I'm paranoid it's just not going to work at all and I'll have no source of money at all.

It's supposed to still work for my online fees regardless, but it still makes me upset that these apparent circumstances are conspiring to make me very insecure and miserable.

Sooo yeah. I'm going to order the server in the next few hours.

I'm almost done with backups. Everyone who didn't tell me they do their own backups should be... backed up!

Sorry for the huge delay, but I got all sicky and that messed me up a lot. (Now I got Jon sick. Figures!) And I got all stressed out about money related things, but I think... hope! that this is resolved now. Well, I guess I will find out. :( If not, I may need to go and poke around for another money source to keep site up for a month or so until I get another source.

The problem is mainly because, due to the horrifyingly extreme delay I've had in getting any sort of identification, I don't have a local bank account. I have to depend on my parents to actually send me my ATM/credit card from the U.S... and as you all know, dealing with my parents+money in any way is unhappy times for me.