I'm SO worn out lately... Just churning out these recruiting lessons for the White Rose over and over. :x

I've written and tested 6 out of 7. Of course, I won't take all the credit, Samarah has done plenty of work on her part as well. She's writing the scripted versions, I'm writing the notes versions. Sometimes our opinions on how lessons are arranged differ slightly; that means I have to do more writing to arrange it as I see fit.

I have never done so much work for a Dragonrealms organization in my LIFE until now. I bet you COLLEGE will be easier. *smirks* But I love what I'm doing because the Order needs the foundation of the recruiting program. Even if I or Samarah are gone, other people can take what we've written down and do good things with it.

Sure it's just a game. But... it's a GOOD game. And I'm even learning good teamwork, writing and editing skills. So it can't all be bad!

With my next bit of news, though, I've entered a whole new level of DR crazy.

I have a LOT to post about! Including a couple of long-ish posts I need to finish up and tack on here. n.n

For now, I just want to announce that I sent my new college app today. To be more accurate, Jon has done a lot of helping me through it this time, because I felt so discouraged at one point I really just felt giving up on my dream to finish college. I felt incredibly bad these past couple weeks. It's seriously been a while since I had a depressive episode that dark.

But I'm finally getting SOME forward motion here. Sent the app, and I got word from my lawyer that March 21 is the deadline for my documents and compensation. While I'm taking this with a grain of salt -- I've been given dates before only for them to preclude yet ANOTHER deadline -- he did reassure us that things are going very smoothly.

It's just the waiting that's hard. Having faith that things will work out. I'm a pessimist who has seen a lot of unexpectedly bad things come true. But I'd be lying if I said I ever lost my hope completely. Because if I did, I'd be dead.

I hope that my mood (and in turn my physical health) will continue to rise. I've even stepped outside a couple times, so that's a good sign! *crosses fingers*

But I'm sitting here playing DR on the new year. Yeah, I'm a dork. Jon and I have our hotel reservation and stuff, though! We just wanted to do it post holiday so it wouldn't be too crazy outside. I'm not one for loud noises and crowds. :(

Talli is circle 44 now. Flying through the ranks with my improved scripts (need to write a short bow one now!) In fact I've been scripting all day while beating my head over this horribly difficult post in Soul Collectors which I FINALLY finished. x.x I am seriously hating Exalted combat right now. I either need to be better organized, or White Wolf needs to stop having rules for similar concepts (i.e. mutations, undead, etc.) spread over TOO MANY different books.

On the other hand Selina said she might run a FFT game and let me play a viera in it. Sounds fun. We are both going to be busy with college entry stuff this Jan, though. Ugh, not looking forward to it, I've been procrastinating this time around because of how discouraged I felt last time I applied but couldn't go. I intend to send before Jan 15 though, one way or another. I just hope they won't need more of my transcripts. Gah.

We're gonna have fondue and booze now, so... woo! (AND I'm going to try and sneak a couple more posts in before then. I wanted to do them before but that Soul Collectors post just KILLED all my time.)

I've been working with hostforweb to try and speed up my site. There were some memory errors lately, which I think have been fixed. I'm not sure about whether the speed is better though.

What I really want is a Xen VPS... Unfortunately I don't think hostforweb has those. But I'm also kind of iffy about moving my entire site without testing the server first. I know, I got slicehost for that. But I'm so lazy with it that I think I'll have to cancel and wait until I have more time to think about webstuff. Besides the fact that I'm not really confident moving my site to slicehost, as it feels more appropriate as a testing environment.

Roleplay and writing have been my main time foci lately, beyond worrying about things like reapplying for college (which I may wait till January to do now, as I've been told no one looks at the files anyway until after holidays), and whether I really will get my passport on Nov 25 (it would not surprise me if I'm getting jerked around again, geez). Oh and ordering new wedding bands and planning our little vacation for our 5th annversary (we'll be gone from Dec 17th-21st).

We also made a few purchases lately that have been entertaining and fun.

So Jon and I have our hotel reservation and will be away for a couple days (as mentioned in the announcement). :)

Today was an eventful day... even though I didn't get to spend much of it doing what I had hoped to do on Sat. Couldn't even finish RPoL posts I wanted to, but that is minor, really. Was taking care of more important things!

Actually I probably did more talking with people in the past couple days than I have in a while. Hermit Sally :(

But I did get to play PSU tonight. Actually, yesterday and today was pretty awesome for PSU, we spent a long time playing. Actually got two full Boost Road runs done, after several weeks of not really playing as much due to one or the other person being tired, unavailable, lack of working account, etc.