Life

Well this time it's more for myself... namely needing to catch up on my games, actually get some REAL rest and so on.

Just too high strung and worn out to participate in much right now, sorry. ;_;

Like I mentioned a couple posts down though, I'll be back by Jan 12th I think... I'll see about starting to help Eni out with her project (uh, unless she found someone else) and getting Tower RP started as well, if I haven't already. Mostly I'm iffy right now on what sort of forum software to use (still leaning toward MyBB though). And I am freaking lazy about writing a web based dice roller, do I suck or what? x.x

Eni - do you need a forum for your new project, or did you already put one up? Also do you still want sim-chan? :P the domain already autorenewed for another year, but if you're done with that name I'll put a stop to the renewals.

Yay for 2009! Oh wait, this is the year I turn 30... *weeps quietly in a corner*

Anyway, sis should be back home by now (I'll have to check on her one more time, but she had a meeting to go to almost as soon as she got off the plane.) So I have the apartment to myself. I need days just to recover from how exhausting it was to have a guest for 10 days. It's not that I don't love my sis, we're just very different people.

The more I am away from the Bay Area, the more I realize how much leaving has changed my lifestyle. I just don't think living there will ever be 'home' again. Part of me is sad because I feel that my choices in life will ultimately distance me from my blood-related family entirely.

Whew... my body is all achy and tired. I feel fatigued a lot. It's partially my period and partially having to be used to adjusting my usual habits at home I guess. Ah well, I'll have time to myself in a week or so.

I bought a Zune yesterday (had to stand in crazy line to get it) but it ended up being some sort of broken refurbished version and we exchanged to get a new one. I hope this one works. I mostly wanted a mp3 player so I could have music to listen to while I'm walking alone ('cause sometimes I get anxiety from loud noises, I could drown them out with music.)

I have to say I REALLY HATE earbuds though. They're uncomfortable for me. I suppose it's also because I only have the one that came with the Zune though, and it kind of blows. :P

Well, it's Christmas morning afternoon, and I figured I should write something. I know not everyone celebrates it, so I'll just make this a general Happy Holidays to all, if you're taking a break to spend quality time with family and friends.

I have a few specific holiday messages too (for Eni and Kalli and Selina. Others already got snail mail cards from me, assuming they actually GET there. :O)

There's a lot of people I've kinda been sparing in contact with, and I'm sorry about that. ;.; This last year has been a really introverted time for me, I guess. I just need a lot of time alone. I'm worried that I'm starting to get increasingly asocial and agoraphobic (just don't feel the urge to go out much at all), but that's something I will have to think about more next year.

...early. whatever. I should be sleeping but I'm not. x.x

ANYWAY, oh! we have Soul Calibur 4 for PS3 and I'm having fun with it. I've not played Soul Calibur since the first one, or was it the second? Anyway, I am playing Tira now and she is my favorite. :D Razor hula hoop anyone? also, her soul edge weapon looks like Ouroboros. *awesome!*

Then Jon and I went into character creation and made Archana and Seventeen. XD (Archa is using Mitsurugi style right now because her current weapon in Wardragon is a reaver daiklave with quick draw iaijutsu type style. 17 is using Cervantes style, since he's a two blade fighter and also happens to have a pistol. Except 17's is not a gunblade.)

We also went out and bought a *board game*, haha. It's an adventure dungeon crawler type thing. I forgot what it's called... possibly because I am so sleep deprived right now it's SICK.

Happy Christmas Eve though. :D more holiday posty later!

We're leaving pretty soon to get my sis! Yay!!

Unfortunately it seems she's arriving on one of the coldest days this month. Geez, it's FREEZING even inside. ;.; Doesn't help we have such big windows though, and the finishing touches haven't been done on the frames yet.

Ohoh I had the opportunity to try every one of my games yesterday, too. I have run after posting this (just got call from sis, she'll be here in 2 hours!) but I wanted to post some short impressions, and a bit about other games Jon and I want.

Also, bonus chara artwork! Mostly 'cause I think Selina will appreciate.

Came back with some video games. :O I decided I'd put most of my Christmas money into a game shopping spree. Among other things I have Luminous Arc 2 and Rhapsody for DS, and also Baroque for the PS2. I got the only copy I have EVER seen of Nobunaga's Ambition for PS2, also. :D

I was really indecisive ;.; there are SO many games I want. I think I will go grab Persona 4 too (which Aurora on LJ very kindly reminded me about) and a PS3 game. That's *plenty* of games for the next few months. I tend to actually stockpile them... I'm a bit of a game packrat, but sooner or later I DO play them. ^^:

I keep wondering if I should've just grabbed Persona 4 instead. I was just less inclined to get it right away because it's newer and more likely to still be in stock. (The video game chain around here, Game Buzz, really favors Atlus games for some reason.)

I wasn't really able to play FFXI at all these past couple days. x.x Just had too much to do the day before yesterday, and then we lost our connection for several hours due to another lameass contractor messing up our cable connection.

I kinda feel bad for Rin since I don't have nearly as much time to put into playing (with all the other activities I do as well, free time or not). FFXI is harder to play solo and I wanted to try to keep up together as a group. Just don't know if I can manage it... especially in the coming weeks with sis over and all that.

Oh, I wanted to mention that the anniversary celebration was actually very nice and relaxing. Thanks to all who gave well wishes! Unfortunately, I'm in a bit of a sour mood lately, and that really put a damper on the good feelings I got from relaxing with husband.

We're going to be away till tomorrow evening-ish.

Going to stay at a hotel for 4th anniversary. (I'm old! o.O) And eat out and all that.

Also, I've been losing weight, I've found. I'm gradually approaching 180. :P But I really need to get back into exercising. In the spring I may lose a great deal if I start that up again. I'm surprised I've still been losing, even if it's only a half a pound a week.

RIN: I couldn't find you at all last night n.n and I kept dying, hehe. So I went and soloed to 12. I probably should try to do quests :P *bad about that* but we should party on Thurs if you want ^^;

Friday is PSU night though, and so is Sat.

See you~! (P.S. Selina, don't worry... I'm not mad at you.)

Meh... no sleep. I feel like crap.

I've been trying to finish up the Christmas cards which I forgot to send yesterday. I have two I am not even sure I'll send. :( one was for Kalli but dumb me just remembered she changed her address, and I don't HAVE the new one. Bleh.

I was gonna send one to Eni but then I thought "wait will her family think it's weird" 'cause the last time I sent a card I had to send it to a different address and now I'm all confused. So I'll just not send it and send something better on her birthday instead.

Cards will be late, anyway :( Honestly, right now I hate life and would be happy to disappear from it. I have this stupid, irrational wish that I could just exist in a reality where I'm the only real person, because other real people trigger my anxiety when I can't figure out what the hell they really think about me and stuff I do.