June 17, 2004
This journal is no longer updated!
Yup... I've moved on to something different... but I'm keeping my Nucleus entries archived here. Comments have been disabled throughout this journal, but you can still view the entry pages directly to see past comments, if you really wanted to.
From now on, check here for my daily ramblings and whatnot.
Thanks for reading, as always ^_^
Announcement by Dark Siren Sally @ 05:48 AM
June 15, 2004
Bear with me...
I should have my CMS-powered site at least up and running in a day or two. After that, this journal will no longer be updated. It'll just be here for interested people to gawk at, I guess. Heh!
By the way -- thank the HostForWeb people for restoring the Nucleus database I mistakenly deleted. That was a scare. o_o; I almost thought it'd be better if I just lost the old entries anyway, but I'm glad they're back.
More about the upcoming Content Management System... [more]
Announcement by Dark Siren Sally @ 06:35 AM
June 06, 2004
I feel like I'm losing it.
I want everything to just go away. I've been avoiding people and procrastinating on important chores. I'm running out of good excuses for why I'm doing what I'm doing. I talk to Jon, but only because I can yell at him and blame him for things that aren't totally his fault. Well, that and because I can pour out more of my emotions through our L5R characters. [more]
Emotional Stuff by Ide Shizuka @ 11:33 AM
June 04, 2004
(I don't know why I am deserving of love)
...that's mainly what's on my mind lately.
Anyway, D&D game today... we'll be playing for quite a while so I don't think I'll be out till midnight... 1 pm to midnight, whoa! The DM is making up for having a screwy schedule that messes up our game time, in any case. He's a pilot, so he gets called in at inopportune moments.
*goes to take a bath with her Gameboy... hehe...*
Day in Detail by Dark Siren Sally @ 12:05 PM
June 03, 2004
WTF...
Geez... I've been sleeping way too much the past couple days. Once I got home I've been this zombie for two days. >_> I would wake up, but soon after I'd feel completely fuckin' exhausted and just fall back asleep again in an hour or two. Either that or I'd struggle to stay awake, if I had something to do. I even overslept through my therapist appointment. >_<
Speaking of that, my therapist changed my diagnosis. What does "major depression" mean? Who knows? I do know that it means I don't have a co-pay fee any more. I also know that I'll be going on anti-depressants soon. Yeah, yeah, I know all the controversy with that. But it's ultimately my decision and I agreed with it.
My D&D game got canceled today. I guess I'll sit around and try to do something creative... or fall back asleep. Damn lymph nodes acting up... *sigh*
Whiny Bitching by Nina Winland @ 01:56 PM
June 01, 2004
Whining session!
I'm restless and I'm soooo ready to go home. I thought I'd be online more but I ended up being pretty preoccupied once we started watching anime. I'm waiting an hour or so, though, because then I'll get home just in time to call Jon. We still have more to talk about. Mmm, we haven't let our charas out to play for awhile, either.
My butt hurts from all the gaming/anime. o_o An exercise regimen is in order once I get settled into my new schedule for the next month or so. God, I feel so fat. And lately my left eyelid has been drooping badly. I need a neurologist appointment. x_x
Wahhh... I want to sleep in my own bed... and veg online with everybody while Jon is out looking for work during the day. Everyone here is napping, so I'm basically doing stuff I could do at home anyway. One more hour... just one more hour...
Whiny Bitching by Nina Winland @ 01:53 PM
It's June again.
That means it's almost been two years since I started this particular incarnation of my journal. Two whole years of my life's musings are in this space of the Internet. [more]
Deep Thoughts by Iria Mnemosyne @ 03:12 AM
Wow...
We finished watching RahXephon a few hours ago. Wow. I mean... wow. It's definitely something I'll have to watch more than once. I don't even care about the EVA comparisons, since I haven't watched Evangelion anyway and don't care to. I'm sure there are similarities, but I don't give a flying fuck. :D I like what I like. I'm not making anyone else like it by saying so. [more]
Obsessiveness by Dark Siren Sally @ 01:32 AM
May 30, 2004
Is it possible to think a mecha is sexy?
We just watched the first 5 eps of RahXephon. I love it just as much as I thought I would! And we still have 21 eps to go, and the movie too. Woohoo! RahXephon is probably the most gorgeous mecha I ever laid my eyes on. (I WANT ONE! XD) The art in this show is delicious, and the story is weird and disjointed enough that I enjoy it thoroughly. I seem to like those sorts of anime. >_> It actually has a weirdness factor similar to Utena, except a lot more tech-y.
Last night I had a convo with Selina that made me quite happy, despite the fact it got cut off suddenly. I don't get to say much that I appreciate and care about her. Well, not directly, anyway. She is one of my favorite people in the world. ^_^
Stuff about Warlords Battlecry 3: [more]
Obsessiveness by Dark Siren Sally @ 07:05 PM
May 29, 2004
Ooo I forgot to mention...
I'm gonna be in Alameda till Tuesday. :O Actually, it does mean I end up being online a lot in between games or when people are asleep (I tend to sleep very little while I'm here).
After I get home though, I'm reserving the weekend for ME! I'm gonna hole up at home and not be bothered by anyone! Mwahaha. Well, except Jon and everyone online. *nods* And no summer classes until the 7th, so... yay. I signed up for two of 'em until July 9th (yes, that means I don't get to leave for Quebec till the 9th or 10th... sigh...) but I may drop one. I dunno yet.
Wow, I'm getting sleepy. Been playing Warlords Battlecry 3 over LAN. It's somewhat reminiscent of Heroes 3, IMHO. My eyelids feel like they'll droop shut any minute...
Announcement by Dark Siren Sally @ 07:55 AM
Whoa... @_@
I think I should stop drinking this irish creme iced coffee thing... It's making me feel kinda funny. *giggle* Actually, I'm really having to hold myself back because I already feel that pressure in my chest I get from having too much caffeine. Eee.
The weird thing is, I was super depressed when I arrived here in Alameda, but now I'm super giddy. I was almost going to write a long-winded, angsty entry about how much I hate myself and how I torture my characters so that it makes me feel better about it. But... not right now. Maybe later. Maybe.
Anyway, Ray helped me fix my Windows/Linux dual boot problem. He rocks. :D
Random Babble by Oirachan @ 04:06 AM
May 27, 2004
While I'm thinking of it...
...I wanted to try and divide my characters into their respective archetypes. Here's my most common ones, with a few examples of each.
Possessive Mistress: Dark Siren Sally, Chaote Melantha, Shiba Yamiko
Self-Sacrificing Healer: Ryshassa do'Reshar, Ryshia si'Prana, Ide Shizuka
Fierce Fighter: Akhalla the Cutthroat, Atmadja do'Reshar, Hida Ikari
Eccentric Fangirl: Oira Skyfallen, Carmila Panties, Shosuro Chidori
Guilty Masochist: Tatsumaki Dragon-Wind, Mnemon Zahra, Matsu Chikami
I have a LOT more characters I could group, but I'm lazy right now. Analyzing my character types is actually something I've wanted to do for a while, though. Mmh... maybe after I've recovered from yesterday...
Deep Thoughts by Iria Mnemosyne @ 06:47 PM
It's over... for now.
No more finals!!111!11oneone
This semester was pretty damn hellish, and the last day of finals was the clincher. My motivation levels are at all time lows! [more]
Announcement by Dark Siren Sally @ 12:05 PM
May 25, 2004
Mrghah x_x
Well okay... my mood is a bit better than yesterday... and I got a nummy happy email from Kalli! I <3 her! XD
I've started my period, which probably explains part of the moodiness too... >_> Still, that doesn't just explain everything away. [more]
Deep Thoughts by Dark Siren Sally @ 11:22 AM
May 24, 2004
Scrolling down my past entries...
It saddens me how little I've written in the past couple months. My journal isn't as much like my secret place as it used to be, I guess. I mean, it's not that I'm paranoid to write here... it's just that lately, I've been using a different way to vent. Namely my long distance plan and the ear of a man I've loved for over a year.
I wonder, now, whether that's as good an idea as I thought it was. [more]