Characters

Since I didn't really get much done yesterday besides sit on my arse, have some sort of epic argument with Jon about packing, and then script a lot of DR, here's my totally useless post about the new Ranger circle requirements.

This is the first time I'm even aware of them, because I didn't even bother checking the Ranger guild forums until today. (That and Olwydd's site has a circle calculator with the new reqs now.) Apparently the change means lower weapon ranks, and MORE survivals. Gawk! No more general survival ranks so I'll have to train specific skills, and I mean... train them HARD.

According to Olwydd's...

The Twilight Ball in DR was (amazingly) pretty fun. Ryshy and Alexsei were there all the way until people were booted out of the Keep 'cause the event was over.

Mostly Alexsei was introducing her to tons and tons of people and she was being all sociable and happy for once. Heh, who knew it. Maybe it was all the wine she drank and cake she ate. She and Alexsei had a couple dances on the floor too, though once he started dancing with others Ryshy was pretty much nonexistant to everyone else -_^

Only two people actually noticed the gown, too. Two, maybe three, I dunno. It's an original, but well, Ryshy is kind of not-noticeable I guess. Alexsei's outfit was pretty hawt though, and the cane got him a lot of attention.

Kalli's leaving tomorrow... I guess I've not been very much in the mood to post.

I've been irritable for the past few days. One could say that I have trouble trusting people and thus my first thought is to assume they think ill of me, or think me a burden. I'm very paranoid about that, and enough suspicion on my part can make me just want to disappear.

I feel like I can say little to anyone lately. :/ I've been making an effort to, lately, especially now that I won't be talking Kalli's ear off, but my urge is just to be withdrawn. Maybe it's the big change coming up for me (note: we are indeed moving August 1st.) I have no idea. I know I ought not to discredit my friends -- there are people that truly care about me. But I get paranoid they might change their minds, so I keep a certain distance. Maybe they're just saying x just to be nice, is what my depression says.

So I spend most of my time playing Dragonrealms and Sims 2.

Sorta... I mean it's not a big deal, just going to the mall to get the D&D 4e books and maybe a bite to eat.

Speaking of 4e, I ran some of Roguelike Adventures and Kalli really liked it ^^ So that was nice to know. She said I'm better than 90% of the DMs she's played with, but then again, most of those games were face to face, not online. Online is a very different animal, I've found.

But I am apparently good at creating suspense on the fly, at least in writing. :O

What I'm not so good at is figuring out when to call a skill check, or coming up with appropriate DCs for 'em. I may have to put Exalted-ish house rules because I boggle at the idea of 1) binary failing or succeeding, rather than levels of success or failure, 2) not being able to reward players for making creative posts (i.e. stunt bonus).

Ugh... for some reason I'm way too hot, even though it's 2 am and I have the huge fan at my back. I think I must just be stressed out. :/ Some difficult stuff happened (not to me, though) that got me all tensed up. So I'm gonna lie down soon.

I spent the whole day in DR, and not actually getting many survival ranks. I've just been tweaking these training scripts Manze gave me, which led to a rash of redoing old scripts I already wrote before, and adding some new ones, too. I've got almost everything that I'd actually like to script scripted. :O

And Talliska has something like 12 ranks of general survival until circle 33.

I'm gonna run D&D 4e tomorrow (well, later today!) I'm not all that prepared, but I'm still going to try and test stuff out with Kalli and Jon. I suppose we'll just try and see what happens. :O There's a lot of rules in the DM book, but I think I'm just going to use the basic XP total guidelines and put random stuff per room, and traps. (Dun dun dun!)

So, I'm like totally food deprived. I haven't eaten all day. I STILL haven't eaten, wtf, though that's being rectified.

Today was mostly me staying indoors because I'm tired of going outside and being all tense and nervous while the music festival is going on. Too many people outside, too much unpredictable noise, so I just stay in. Grrr. I don't like when I get like this... I hope moving will help my agoraphobia a bit. :(

So I told Jon that we'd go and try Alexsei's resurrection quest again. Holy shit that was hard. And frightening. I was leading for most of the quest (as Talliska of course) and was freaking out the entire time about messing up and getting Alexsei and Terra (our friend that came along -- awesome bard and great person, who is also a total comic, book and video game geek!) killed. ^^;

Kalli wanted to see this, so here it is. It's one of my longest posts for Iya... a ritual sacrifice to a Storm Mother of the West. You don't want to offend a god of sea storms when you're sailing in the middle of her domain. :O That's just bad juju.

Iyadali, as I'm sure I've mentioned before, is one of my Exalted 2nd edition characters from Roleplay Online. She's a shaman from Okeanos (aka the Neck, as the Realmites call it), and a Twilight Caste Solar.

Unfortunately, I'm doing this stunt without charms, because she doesn't *have* any yet that would help. Whoops. I can only hope my roll isn't bad -- I tend to let the ST roll for forum games, so she can give bonii as appropriate, so I won't know till next she posts. ^^;

Anyway, the post:

So I've been letting myself rest... it's nice. ^^

Today I've just been playing Etrian Odyssey 2, messing with DR and chatting with peoples.

I found out there is interest in me making a Tower Between Worlds MUD again. :O It looks like it might be based on Smaug, which happens to be one of the types of muds I've never played. Figures! It's more of the hack n' slash type, so there will be actual potential for combat and character advancement, unlike previous Tower projects. *boggles at this*

But it'll be a small project, more like a playground for a few of us to mess with building and writing descriptions and such. Mostly it'll be Eni and Kalli and me, it looks like. Maybe others if there is interest.

Dunno yet when it'll be set up -- probably next month? Or Sept? So let me know if working on Tower MUD interests you.

Today was better for going out, it was cooler (there was some rain). I had some stressful periods but mostly I was all right.

I went to a nice Spanish restaurant. Oh no, I forgot the name already. (Figures!) but I got to have paella again. I *love* paella. It's a dish with saffron rice and usually some chicken or seafood with it. We got paella de marisco, the seafood kind -- it came with a crab claw and a half-lobster, too. Jon's crab claw was so huge he spent half the meal trying to crack it, hehe.

We also got appetizers, mmm. A really tasty seafood pastry, and gazpacho soup. Jon was calling me a dork because I told him the only reason I knew gazpacho soup was cold was because of watching Red Dwarf. I guess it is kind of dorky. ^^;

Mostly I was playing DR yesterday (and this early morning). Oh, and I did play a bit of Rosalia with Nekira, too. There was a week timeskip so now she's noticing her servants getting ominously ill... dun dun dun!

At one point in the afternoon I came on to reboot and totally forgot to actually do the reboot. *boggle* Ah well. Also meant I wasn't on anything but AIM all day.

I think I'm suffering some pretty severe stress symptoms right now. Like... my chest feels like there's pressure sitting on it. My shoulders are strained and sometimes I can't feel my extremities on my left side. I went out to take a walk earlier in the day and the combination of stress and heat made me so lightheaded I had to turn back.

So I guess I really just need to rest and have some time to myself, again. I may even see a doctor if this continues beyond the next couple days, despite the fact I don't even have my health insurance set up yet. Just feeling really bad right now.