Dark Siren Sally's blog

Trying to write out my feelings after moving to Montreal is, again, something I've had a hard time putting in words.

My impressions of the city itself are easy enough. I like it so far... or at least the small part of downtown I live in, 'cause I've not had the opportunity to go very far yet. Hard to do really, what with all the errands we still have left, and a lack of money.

The conveniences here are better than I had in Quebec City. We have a grocery store just a couple blocks away. Few blocks in the opposite direction is a mall and the closest subway station. Within walking distance, there's plenty of other malls and restaurants. Same with my college of choice (it's only one subway stop away, so it's more worth walking it unless the weather truly blows.)

I've been having a hard time figuring out how to write entries lately, for some reason. Like so much has happened, or is in the process of happening, that I just have NO idea where to start, where to end and how to divide it up.

Well, to make it easy for myself I'll open with the easier topic, that is, my return to online life. :O

First thing I did coming back was get back on AIM and IRC, of course. That was on Friday. Immediately had a lot of chatting to do. ^^; I was missed, despite all my usual fears, and that was nice to know, even though for a while there I was thinking about not returning at all.

We finally got 'net set up here today. Sheesh, took a while. The cable guys had to actually drop a wire from the rooftop, drill holes through our walls, and staple the wire along our ceilings. And it took 'em a few days to figure out how.

We don't even have PHONE yet. n.n On the other hand, I did hear from Kalli, today!! Turns out her phone just wasn't working at all where she moved. *sadface* BUT she ended up moving in with her uncle who has net access. :O So it looks like I'll get to see her now and then online when her uncle's girlfriend isn't using her comp. This is very awesome!

I have a lot to write about but I'll have to do it later. Going to take a walk (I've been exercising lately!) Let me tell you, Montreal is such a relief for me... there's stores open till 9 pm or even later over here, every day! It feels more like where I *used* to live, but it's different. It's amazing how truly bilingual it is here, too.

Oh and check out my status. I'm playing FF12 again! GASP! And I finished watching Gundam Seed. I want to watch more Gundam series now. n.n

Well, I've had a pretty hectic week and sadly, it's not even done yet. So don't expect me around till next week. :/

First of all, there were delays in getting the new apartment ready for us, so we had to wait for a few days for that. (Plumbing and etc.)

Then we finally had the clear to move but the movers weren't ready to go, so we could only bring what would fit into the car.

Except we didn't have a car any more, because apparently my old Saturn didn't pass the final inspection, and they basically told us ON the day we were going to move that my car had to be taken out of circulation.

So now my car's sitting in some junkyard somewhere, or already turned into scrap, after I obsessed for months over whether I'd ever get to see it again, whether it'd still work after sitting in a garage for all that time, and etc.

Well the move got pushed forward again, but it's a good thing, because we're not even done getting the place clean before heading out.

I feel kind of bad, because I told everyone I'd be moving today, but then plans changed. We still have some junk lying around, the walls are dirty, etc. so there's still work to be done. (Edited for clarity :P) But I COULD be around, since Jon is doing most of the heavy work due to me being a worthless loser. I even got on PSU yesterday cause I really, really wanted to try Max Attack G part 2 while we took a break from stuff. Just a couple hours, but still. :/

I feel my life is a waste unless I'm around for people or doing things for people. Maybe people need me around and I'm just flaking out. Like, am I going to come back online at the new place and realize people are upset at me because I could've been around on Fri or part of Sat but I wasn't?

The other thing on my mind right now is about Kalli.

Technically we're moving on August 2nd now, 'cause the landlady said she has emergency things on Friday to deal with. But we really have to stop being lazy and push to do the rest of the packing on the 1st... so I don't plan to be online much if at all.

That said, the past couple days have not been all that great...

Erm... well...

Sorry I've been really scarce online, just not much in the mood to be about what with the upcoming move and my mood lately. Honestly, I'm not even sure we'll get everything done that needs doing before Friday. Still a lot left unpacked and I hardly have any motivation to help. *sigh* Jon kept telling me I didn't have to help, and now we only have two days left with too many things still left unpacked. (I've actually been embellishing the truth with some people about just how much we have done, heh.)

I don't even know how we're bringing some of our stuff to Montreal ourselves, when I don't even have my car back or know whether it runs properly!

Since I didn't really get much done yesterday besides sit on my arse, have some sort of epic argument with Jon about packing, and then script a lot of DR, here's my totally useless post about the new Ranger circle requirements.

This is the first time I'm even aware of them, because I didn't even bother checking the Ranger guild forums until today. (That and Olwydd's site has a circle calculator with the new reqs now.) Apparently the change means lower weapon ranks, and MORE survivals. Gawk! No more general survival ranks so I'll have to train specific skills, and I mean... train them HARD.

According to Olwydd's...

Tonight was a pretty wearying evening in DR. As usual, RP is srs bizness, in Elanthia. It gets like that when you've poured years and years (for some people, over a decade) of training, backstory and interaction into your character. Gotta try really hard not to take it too personally, sometimes. 'Cause it's a game, and not RL.

On the other hand... my games are sometimes all the interaction I have with people. I've not hid the fact I've been practically a shut-in for 3 years, I suffer from major depression, I have serious anxiety issues and hardly any self-esteem to speak of. I don't have many friends, online and off, and I have trouble trusting the few I do have. It means I often feel alone even if I'm not, and I'll expect betrayals even if none are there.

Sometimes they are there. But that's another thing entirely.

WCNews -- this site really brings back the nostalgia for me. Wow. :O

I almost wish I'd stayed in the fandom. As fandoms go, WC doesn't look like a terrible one. Kinda niche, and decent(ly obsessed) people from what I can see. That site's collected a great deal of Wing Commander info I didn't even know EXISTED, and is still getting more!

Sadly, I really only played the first two games before I went onto other pastures. I have some fond memories of the WCHQ, writing interactive fics and such. It was damn cool being one of the only girls I knew into the games, besides my sister, of course. I remember at one point I actually wrote a fic to be posted on a Wing Commander fanzine, based on the first contact Terrans had with the Kilrathi! *boggles* Ahh yes, and it was called Trid-Link (the fanzine), after that lil' booklet you got in the Wing Commander 1 box.

Geez... :D I almost want to replay WC now. Maybe I'll get Jon to do it if I can't. x.@ I suck badly at those kinds of games nowadays!